Since covid has happened, i have been very introverted and at home a looot. and so when i finally have gone out (last night i went out for the first time in months) i have had intrusive thoughts all day feeling like i did something wrong or offended someone or embarrassed myself. i also have a foggy memory since i had a few drinks. i even start to completely question events and convos and almost like want to start making up things that never happened. this happens very badly when i go out to bars or with my friends. i start replaying the conversations i had in my head and feel awful. it happens mildly when i go to the store or have smaller social interactions. has anyone had similar experiences and if so, is anything helped you? i feel like i keep wanting reassurance from people around me to tell me i was acting fine, but i think its probably only making my thoughts worse. i hope this made sense, thanks so much for reading this

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Date posted: 4y

i understand you completely. i relate to this a lot. it’s sucks

berry cupcake

Date posted: 4y

i am so sorry. it really does suck :(

cupcake55

Date posted: 4y

This is literally my brain, can totally relate. I get it worse if I’ve been out for a few drinks. I always feel like I’ve upset someone or acted stupid and embarrassed myself. I don’t really drink great amounts but I feel like I forget things and that’s when I start worrying and panicking. I’ve had horrible thoughts before that I’ve cheated on my husband on nights out (when I’ve been with him all night and we were apart for 2 mins when I used the toilet!). It happens for me with everyday conversations too, like I’ll have to remember what I said or who I had a particular chat with else it’s proof that I’m going/have gone mad… I always crave the reassurance too. It’s a vicious circle and is SO exhausting. I wish I could just turn off my brain sometimes.

berry cupcake

Date posted: 4y

i am so sorry. i literally started questioning myself if i cheated because my boyfriend is long distance and this guy gave me and all my friends a ride home (i was the last to be dropped off & him and i have known eachother from before) and my memory was so foggy at this point. it sucks so badly trying to remember what you said or did because it feels impossible and even if we think know what we said we start to question it.. it is so so exhausting and i cried all day because i just feel like giving up. like i should just stay home and never go out again and that would be so much easier. thank you for telling me your experience & good luck

cupcake55

Date posted: 4y

@bunylala How are you feeling today? I find only time helps with the anxiety after socialising/drinking alcohol. I ALWAYS crave reassurance from whoever I was socialising with and most of time I do cave and ask for the reassurance. It’s extremely exhausting to overthink and analyse every social encounter in life, and especially made worse by alcohol! Hope you’re doing ok, you got this :-)

berry cupcake

Date posted: 4y

@cupcake55 thank you so much for asking! i went out last night and i did so much better, and i didnt drink as much either. i started to overthink 2 convos but for the most part i think i brushed them off. i feel like i should just get myself out there a bit more little by little. i agree with you completely and i really appreciate your words and taking your time to share your experience. it really helps when you know youre not alone. thank you so much! we can both do this! :)

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