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i understand you completely. i relate to this a lot. it’s sucks
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i am so sorry. it really does suck :(
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This is literally my brain, can totally relate. I get it worse if I’ve been out for a few drinks. I always feel like I’ve upset someone or acted stupid and embarrassed myself. I don’t really drink great amounts but I feel like I forget things and that’s when I start worrying and panicking. I’ve had horrible thoughts before that I’ve cheated on my husband on nights out (when I’ve been with him all night and we were apart for 2 mins when I used the toilet!). It happens for me with everyday conversations too, like I’ll have to remember what I said or who I had a particular chat with else it’s proof that I’m going/have gone mad… I always crave the reassurance too. It’s a vicious circle and is SO exhausting. I wish I could just turn off my brain sometimes.
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i am so sorry. i literally started questioning myself if i cheated because my boyfriend is long distance and this guy gave me and all my friends a ride home (i was the last to be dropped off & him and i have known eachother from before) and my memory was so foggy at this point. it sucks so badly trying to remember what you said or did because it feels impossible and even if we think know what we said we start to question it.. it is so so exhausting and i cried all day because i just feel like giving up. like i should just stay home and never go out again and that would be so much easier. thank you for telling me your experience & good luck
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@bunylala How are you feeling today? I find only time helps with the anxiety after socialising/drinking alcohol. I ALWAYS crave reassurance from whoever I was socialising with and most of time I do cave and ask for the reassurance. It’s extremely exhausting to overthink and analyse every social encounter in life, and especially made worse by alcohol! Hope you’re doing ok, you got this :-)
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@cupcake55 thank you so much for asking! i went out last night and i did so much better, and i didnt drink as much either. i started to overthink 2 convos but for the most part i think i brushed them off. i feel like i should just get myself out there a bit more little by little. i agree with you completely and i really appreciate your words and taking your time to share your experience. it really helps when you know youre not alone. thank you so much! we can both do this! :)
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This is my first post, so I apologize if the formatting is weird. I experience existential ocd I always struggled as a kid but learned more and more how to manage with school and such forcing me to learn how, now I experience a lot of overwhelming intrusions from when I wake up to when I go to bed (simply because I live and work in the same place it gets cabin feverish) but now more often going out maybe it’s just paranoia, I walk into a place and each person comes with a story immediately, every piece of trash on the floor, every piece of produce, each isle is a brand new way I could get into a life altering situation. I’ve managed well enough but sometimes I just completely lose my original objective and just leave or I’ll wanna leave my house but everything that goes with it and that could happen pops up and I just won’t go. It’s started to become avoidant behavior. Any help or similar stories? I just feel like I’m going crazy but my thoughts are so scattered and immediate it’s hard to break the habit and not spin a story. Thank yall!
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- 22w
this weekend, i went out with some friends who were staying with me from out of town and i drank too much. because of my job and mental health i very proactively limit how much i drink but i got caught up in the fun of the moment and drank past my limit. this morning, i woke up to a message from my boss about a tragedy that happened in my community this past weekend. my mind is rapidly trying to draw connections between me drinking too much and this tragedy. my ocd is trying to convince me that i caused it while i was drinking and that i just don't remember it. anyone else experience things like this? i'm trying not to seek reassurance but it's getting difficult!
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For context, I was previously diagnosed with GAD and OCD. Months ago, after a night of drinking with coworkers I experienced slight hangxiety, but I remembered most of the night. At work when I asked a coworker if I did anything weird he made a joke that really wasn’t funny. This joke caused me to doubt my memory. I think I had thought I was more sober than everyone else when in reality I was not. I remember checking on a coworker who was slumped over in the drivers seat of his car and in no state to drive and asking “you good?” The next thing I remember is that I was in the drivers seat of his car reversing out and I think I assumed that he and our other coworker were also in the car. Our other coworker stopped me and told me to pull back into the parking stall and come back inside. I remember the events both leading up to and after that all the way until I got home. However the small gap in my memory had been causing me a lot of distress, so I asked that coworker who I went to check on who was the only person that was present during the gap in my memory if I touched anyone or let anyone touch me, to which he said no definitely not. He also said that he wasn’t in the car when I was reversing out and that he vividly remembers that I was the only person in the car. When I explained to him that the joke that our other coworker said made me worry that I might’ve done something that constitutes cheating on my bf he said no that guy is just weird and says effed up stuff. I feel a lot better, because he has no reason to lie and he doesn’t seem like that type of person. However I still feel unsettled, so I plan to call my doctor’s office when they open in the next hour. I’m wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar/has any advice.
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