I had my first NOCD appointment on Friday. I really liked my therapist. I'm feeling very vulnerable because talking about my illness and my past memories and experiences has triggered me a lot and I'm feeling very depressed. I feel like life is a lot for me. I've been crying every day, so my chest is sore, and I've barely been eating or sleeping properly, so my body feels tired. I hope it gets better.

I've heard that therapy often makes you feel worse first before you feel better. Like you said, you're feeling vulnerable because you're digging up all your thoughts and feelings, which maybe before you had been avoiding or distracting yourself from. Make sure to take good care of your self over the next couple weeks and give yourself lots of slack. I'm sure you'll feel less bad after a couple more sessions. :)