- Username
- allyocd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
- Username
- absmcgeeabsmcgee
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Yes
- Username
- BradOCDBradOCD
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Yes! I’m not totally convinced that I’ve never found the opposite sex attractive and I’ve never enjoyed sex. Even though I’m pretty sure I have. I had always had bedroom troubles so sex just was never a big deal to me but now it seems like this huge deal. All the times I had enjoyed it was when I was completely in the moment. But I had found being in the moment hard because of previous trauma due to a medical condition. So that was always my reason now this has become my new reason. I can’t tell whether it’s just an excuse to fix an issue or whether I genuinely am gay. I’m now thinking that all the sexual material I watched I was focused on the guy and not the girl even tho I didn’t think I was at the time or even if I was it didn’t mean anything. I still had never ever contemplated wanting to get with a man. It’s just so confusing idk anymore. I just feel like I’m in denial and clutuching at Straws and really I must be gay
- Username
- allyocdallyocd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Yeah I just feel so helpless. I feel like I’m geuinely gay now and it really sucks bc I don’t want to be. I want to be me again.
- Username
- BradOCDBradOCD
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Is anyone else scared that the reason they feel so slow is because they’re in the closet now?
- Username
- allyocdallyocd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Yes
- Username
- BradOCDBradOCD
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@allyocd It just feels so real, and I’m just depressed of having these feelings. And I’m scared they’ve always been there and I just didn’t realise. I don’t know who or what I am anymore.
- Username
- allyocdallyocd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@BradOCD I feel completely the same. Just want it to end
- Username
- BradOCDBradOCD
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@allyocd Everytime I read an article about HOCD or coming out. It just makes me more confused. I feel like my whole life has been a huge lie and I was just making myself feel things that weren’t there
- Username
- LilyrosalyndLilyrosalynd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
yessss!! do you feel anxious though? i barely ever do and barely do compulsions anymore :(
- Username
- allyocdallyocd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Same here !!
- Username
- LilyrosalyndLilyrosalynd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@allyocd really??? to this extent?
- Username
- allyocdallyocd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@Lilyrosalynd Yes. I don’t really get the anxiety anymore, well atleast I don’t feel it and my compulsions are low. Kinda just feels like I’m gay now. It’s tiring
- Username
- LilyrosalyndLilyrosalynd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@allyocd yes yes yes!!! sorry but i am relieved someone else is going through this! if you ever need anything i am here <3
- Username
- allyocdallyocd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@Lilyrosalynd Thank you!! Same to you.
- Username
- Brian K.Brian K.
- User type
- NOCD Alumni
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Hi allyocd, OCD is called the doubting disease for a reason, and doubting whether you have or have ever had it is one of its favorite tricks to play on you. If I may ask, what is the source behind your concern over your sexuality? If your concern is because of intrusive thoughts or dreams that you have had, remember that you are not your thoughts or dreams. I think most people have had questions about their sexuality at one point or another for varying reasons. I certainly have, as well as many of my friends and family members. As much of a cop-out as it may sound when you have the intrusive thought question your sexuality or who you are, just tell it “so what?” And try to go about your day not giving it the attention or rumination that it craves. So what if it’s true or not true, so what if your preference has or has not, changed, so what if you are or are not attractive to the same or opposite sex, you are still you at the end of the day, nothing will change that, not even your OCD.
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- Username
- arborvitae
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Tw for people who have HOCD. I recently accepted the fact that I really am bisexual and that's okay. ? I love my husband and nothing will change that. I used to think it was HOCD but after the thought of being attracted to women stopped scaring me, the fears went away but the attraction didn't. So it's no longer a cause for distress and is just a part of me that I've accepted and made peace with. ? However, the one downside of this is, because one of my OCD themes ended up being true, I now have thoughts like "What if they're ALL true? What if every other OCD theme including your POCD is true??" Anyone else in a similar situation?
- Username
- ocdin2ascension
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I wonder what people think about having SOOCD as a straight person and simultaneously striving to be queer-positive and affirming. I feel most “myself”, most free, when I don’t feel pressure from my subconscious to act out on gay impulses and become a flamboyant personality, and when I don’t even have to think about “being straight” because I just am who I am. Even though I’d like to be free from gay obsessions and false attractions that feel like they’ve evolved into real attractions (even though i still don’t feel like I truly want men), I feel guilty that I am choosing not to let this flamboyant “alternate” personality develop. I feel like I’m not a true ally if I’m saying it’s beautiful for other people to experience queer sexuality, but when I experience obsessions and therefore feelings of a queer nature I dismiss it as “not me”. I know we can’t defeat OCD with neat forms of reassurance or ways of explaining the pressure away, but I’m having a hard time not embracing obsessive gay thoughts because I feel bad not actively affirming them. But then accepting them as real makes me super anxious and untrue to myself. Thoughts?
- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Can sexual orientation ocd make you gay? I used to freak out A LOT but now the thoughts don't bother me as much and that makes me think that I might actually be gay😥
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