Anybody struggling with real event OCD/false memory OCD?

I have false memory OCD at the moment

The worst part is you have to accept you will never get 100% certainty no matter now much you ruminate or seek reassurance....accept the thoughts and the uncertainty and try not to let the ruminations win...this takes practice though...my false memory started in Oct 2018 and still bothers me every day

Theres a guy on Instagram called OCDRECOVERYUK....he is very good

reassurance from others sounds good but trust me, it will make things worse. It doesn't matter if 1000 people tells you nothing happened, you will always have doubt

I’m on the road to recovery, but struggled mightily with this for years. My situation sounds very similar. Unconditional acceptance seems to be the key.

Yes ? What’s your theme?

Many times obsessions tell me that something with their own plot.Most of the times the facts are unreal and I am blamed for something that I didn't do

mine is thinking I've cheated on my partner after drinking

These are the worst part of OCD. It’s completely ruined my life I’m so worried I did something out of character and that I’m a horrible person. I have 0 way to get certainty Struggling with it now, not sure how to do it properly. Always in my head, it’s better when I don’t ruminate...but I don’t realise ? How do you deal with it?

Well that’s reassuring haha! Feel like I’ll never get out this hole. It’s not whether we did it or not, it’s the uncertainty of never finding out ? Has anybody actually overcome this?

That’s one of my compulsions and I need to learn not to do it.

One of the worst parts of OCD ?I can’t trust anything. “Did this happen? Did that happen? Did it happen like I remember it? Why can’t I remember every little detail of that thing that happened 3 years ago? THAT MUST MEAN MY BRAIN IS BLOCKING OUT MEMORIES!!!! AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!” I hate OCD brain.

He knows what he is talking about!

Me too, Lewis! Things can (and will) get better. I have gone through extended periods of very dark hopelessness about this, but it didn’t last forever. You can do this!

If it helps, one book I would recommend is “How to Stubbornly Refuse to Make Yourself Miserable About Anything - Yes Anything.” I don’t know really anything about you or your situation, but just thought I would throw this out there, because it made a massive difference in my life.

Well my real event and false memory go hand in hand. It’s like false memories about the real event that I know are not true but I still think of them and can’t stop. I have a lot of different themes but this is one of the worst for me.

(TW: assault) I was assaulted when I was younger and tell myself what if I actually liked it and lied and wasn’t even assaulted?

Do you feel better than you did?

have good days and bad days.. mostly bad though lol

Lewis, I honestly don’t know how to deal with mine. I ruminate a lot. I have verbally sought reassurance from others, online and from myself, from therapists, but the thing is no matter how much they validate what I say it only helps for so long, as is the nature with OCD. I don’t know how to accept the uncertainty but I’m going to try I’m just so scared. I have my first ERP appointment today.

I definitely believe that to be true.

I still do that aswell as ruminations being honest because they are so damn hard to stop lol

I have this, does the feeling come first?

But obviously easier said that done

Rollt1805 thanks for suggesting the OCDRECOVERYUK Instagram. It’s really great!

I’m kinda getting to the point where I don’t even know if it’s possible to recover from this. It’s messed my life up ?

Lewis I know it’s hard but I believe you can do this.

Thank you. Tama did you get your life back? Or are able to be happy?

And yes, I still struggle sometimes, but I am able to see things through a much more positive lens now. It can be beat, and honestly, I appreciate everything in my life more now that I’ve been through it.

Something good will come from what you’re enduring.

Thank you? I appreciate your help. I’ll give the book a look at! My situation (not that it matters, but to tell you): About 3 months ago my OCD blew up in my face, everything was perfect. Then I had all these ‘false memories’ and what ifs...I had a list of about 10/15 relating to POCD. The main two being: - What if I’d downloaded child porn accidentally (or on purpose and not realised) - I’m mostly over this one now - about 2 years ago I spoke to some girl on Facebook, I was using my second account and it’s been deleted/deactivated so can’t check. I’d had a few drinks and I can’t remember hardly anything of the conversation. So I’m instantly thinking “what if I’m a pedo”, what if she was underage, what if said something sexual, what if I asked for a photo etc etc and it got blown up... Now it won’t leave my head and I can’t be happy at all ?

This sounds very difficult, and I’m sorry I don’t have any concrete techniques for getting better, but I do think that book could be helpful for you as well. I also ruminate on my fears, but for me getting better was about accepting them, true or untrue. It’s a difficult path to recovery, but worth it in the long run.