745
- Date posted
- 3y
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
Take some deep breathes and try your best not to figure out what the intrusive thoughts means. Try to sit with the discomfort without doing any compulsions like confession, ruminating, seeking reassurance.
745745
- Date posted
- 3y
It happened just recently though... I had no idea it was a trans man... I just thought it was a woman I was looking at based on explicit physical female characteristics until I looked it up and discovered that the character identified as a trans man in the comic... without ever knowing it... 😭😭😭
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD It's okay. It happened and we can't change what happened but we can try our best to not give any attention to what happened and move on. Now you have to stop ruminating about what it means, seek reassurance, confessing, etc I know it must be so so hard for you right now but I promise you'll get through this. Let me know if you wanna talk. I'm here :) Please remember to be kind to yourself.
745745
- Date posted
- 3y
@itsAnna I honestly didn’t know... 😭😭😭 I honestly thought they identified as female because of their explicit physical female characteristics... I didn’t know they identified as trans... 😭😭😭 I don’t ever want to be homosexual or bisexual ever 😭😭😭
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD You can absolutely sit with the uncertainty and discomfort. It's very hard. It's very very hard but I know you can do this. Don't seek answers but sit with the not knowing. ❤️
745745
- Date posted
- 3y
@itsAnna It’s becoming overwhelming... it’s now convincing me that I’m attracted to and aroused by male g*nitals... 😭😭😭 despite having feelings of attraction towards a female Uber driver I really liked... 😭😭😭
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD I want to reassure you but I can't cause it won't help you in the long run but Say "maybe, maybe not" to every single thought OCD brings up. But don't say maybe, maybe in a COMPULSIVE way. Like to feel relief. say maybe, maybe not and not seek the answers. You can do this💜
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD I'm sorry you're having a very hard time. I promise you, you'll get through this 💜
745745
- Date posted
- 3y
@itsAnna It feels like I cant... 😭😭😭 I’ve been dealing with this nonstop for nearly 18 months now... i don’t know what to do...
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD OCD is lying that you can't but YOU CAN! I'm sorry you've been through a lot and still going through a lot but I promise you, things will definitely get better. Try not to do the compulsions cause the compulsions will keep you stuck. try to sit with the not knowing and discomfort. It's very hard but you can do this❤️
745745
- Date posted
- 3y
@itsAnna I have real event ocd stemmed from my HOCD and POCD... all involving h*ntai... I can’t deal with this anymore... 😞😞😞
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD You can! You absolutely can deal with this and handle this! OCD is saying you can't but YOU CAN!
745745
- Date posted
- 3y
@itsAnna It just feels so difficult... it feels so real... these past 18 months have been nothing but hell... I just want this to all be HOCD and POCD and real event ocd... so badly...
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD I'm sorry. Please be kind to yourself and REMEMBER you're not alone in this! 💜 It is so difficult but we can recover. Did you see any therapist? I highly encourage you to seek professional help and do ERP.
745745
- Date posted
- 3y
@itsAnna I can’t afford therapy and my family doesn’t have medical insurance... I can’t do the payment plan NOCD has because I don’t have a job... all the ocd contacts have stopped emailing me... I want and need this to be HOCD and POCD and real event OCD... I can’t take this anymore... I just can’t...
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD It must be so hard but please don't give up. Don't give up. Things will definitely get better. I am sending you all my love. You deserve the whole world. Please remember we're all here for you. You're not alone in this. I really hope you get the best help you, soon. 💜 It must be very hard but try your best not to pay attention to the thoughts. Give no value to the thoughts and remember not to do ruminating or any other compulsions like reassurance seeking, confession, etc. It's very hard but YOU CAN DO IT. It might take some time and it's definitely not a one day work so you have to be patient and try not to do the compulsions. It's hard but you can do this. 💜
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD You can take this. You definitely can. You can handle this! I know you can.
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@itsAnna I really hope you get the best help, soon*
745745
- Date posted
- 3y
@itsAnna Thank you for the kind words... it really means a lot... I just wish I could know with certainty... I don’t ever wanna be my ocd... I don’t ever wanna be my intrusive thoughts, feelings or groinals... I don’t ever wanna be anything my intrusive thoughts are telling me I am... when I don’t ever wanna be...
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD You're so welcome. 💜 Certainty DOESN'T exist. OCD lies. OCD tells us we need to know with certainty but CERTAINTY doesn't exist and WE DON'T NEED CERTAINTY. We can live with uncertainty! We can tolerate uncertainty! ❤️ AWWW I'm sorry you're going through this. You'll definitely go through. I don't want to reassure you but remember, Your OCD doesn't you. You are not your OCD!
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
Your OCD doesn't define you*
745745
- Date posted
- 3y
If it is HOCD, POCD, and real event OCD... I hope to god it is... because I’m so stressed out because of all of this... I’m depressed because it constantly makes me think I’m attracted to my friends and it feels so real... and the real event OCD stemming from my HOCD and POCD don’t make anything better... 😞😞😞
HumannnnnHumannnnn
- Date posted
- 3y
@POCD/RealEventOCD Sorry I can't reassure you cause it will only make your OCD worse. I will not make your OCD worse. ❤️ You'll get through this. Things will definitely get better. ❤️ You're not alone in this. By the way, Please save this numbers and call or text them when you can or when you want or when you need. They are very helpful! National Suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255 National suicide prevention textline: 741741
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- 24w
I feel absolutely horrible!!
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- 22w
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Northern_Dow...
- Date posted
- 19w
Real Event OCD is a different breed (18+)
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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