I had just “minded my own business” to who I presumed was a woman because she had explicit female characteristics and such only to discover that he identifies as a trans man in the comic I’m reading... 😞😞😞 I didn’t even know he was a trans man... I honestly thought he was a woman because of his female body parts... 😭😭😭 I don’t ever wanna be my HOCD or POCD or Real event OCD... 😭😭😭

Take some deep breathes and try your best not to figure out what the intrusive thoughts means. Try to sit with the discomfort without doing any compulsions like confession, ruminating, seeking reassurance.

It happened just recently though... I had no idea it was a trans man... I just thought it was a woman I was looking at based on explicit physical female characteristics until I looked it up and discovered that the character identified as a trans man in the comic... without ever knowing it... 😭😭😭

@POCD/RealEventOCD It's okay. It happened and we can't change what happened but we can try our best to not give any attention to what happened and move on. Now you have to stop ruminating about what it means, seek reassurance, confessing, etc I know it must be so so hard for you right now but I promise you'll get through this. Let me know if you wanna talk. I'm here :) Please remember to be kind to yourself.

@itsAnna I honestly didn’t know... 😭😭😭 I honestly thought they identified as female because of their explicit physical female characteristics... I didn’t know they identified as trans... 😭😭😭 I don’t ever want to be homosexual or bisexual ever 😭😭😭

@POCD/RealEventOCD You can absolutely sit with the uncertainty and discomfort. It's very hard. It's very very hard but I know you can do this. Don't seek answers but sit with the not knowing. ❤️

@itsAnna It’s becoming overwhelming... it’s now convincing me that I’m attracted to and aroused by male g*nitals... 😭😭😭 despite having feelings of attraction towards a female Uber driver I really liked... 😭😭😭

@POCD/RealEventOCD I want to reassure you but I can't cause it won't help you in the long run but Say "maybe, maybe not" to every single thought OCD brings up. But don't say maybe, maybe in a COMPULSIVE way. Like to feel relief. say maybe, maybe not and not seek the answers. You can do this💜

@POCD/RealEventOCD I'm sorry you're having a very hard time. I promise you, you'll get through this 💜

@itsAnna It feels like I cant... 😭😭😭 I’ve been dealing with this nonstop for nearly 18 months now... i don’t know what to do...

@POCD/RealEventOCD OCD is lying that you can't but YOU CAN! I'm sorry you've been through a lot and still going through a lot but I promise you, things will definitely get better. Try not to do the compulsions cause the compulsions will keep you stuck. try to sit with the not knowing and discomfort. It's very hard but you can do this❤️

@itsAnna I have real event ocd stemmed from my HOCD and POCD... all involving h*ntai... I can’t deal with this anymore... 😞😞😞

@POCD/RealEventOCD You can! You absolutely can deal with this and handle this! OCD is saying you can't but YOU CAN!

@itsAnna It just feels so difficult... it feels so real... these past 18 months have been nothing but hell... I just want this to all be HOCD and POCD and real event ocd... so badly...

@POCD/RealEventOCD I'm sorry. Please be kind to yourself and REMEMBER you're not alone in this! 💜 It is so difficult but we can recover. Did you see any therapist? I highly encourage you to seek professional help and do ERP.

@itsAnna I can’t afford therapy and my family doesn’t have medical insurance... I can’t do the payment plan NOCD has because I don’t have a job... all the ocd contacts have stopped emailing me... I want and need this to be HOCD and POCD and real event OCD... I can’t take this anymore... I just can’t...

@POCD/RealEventOCD It must be so hard but please don't give up. Don't give up. Things will definitely get better. I am sending you all my love. You deserve the whole world. Please remember we're all here for you. You're not alone in this. I really hope you get the best help you, soon. 💜 It must be very hard but try your best not to pay attention to the thoughts. Give no value to the thoughts and remember not to do ruminating or any other compulsions like reassurance seeking, confession, etc. It's very hard but YOU CAN DO IT. It might take some time and it's definitely not a one day work so you have to be patient and try not to do the compulsions. It's hard but you can do this. 💜

@POCD/RealEventOCD You can take this. You definitely can. You can handle this! I know you can.

@itsAnna I really hope you get the best help, soon*

@itsAnna Thank you for the kind words... it really means a lot... I just wish I could know with certainty... I don’t ever wanna be my ocd... I don’t ever wanna be my intrusive thoughts, feelings or groinals... I don’t ever wanna be anything my intrusive thoughts are telling me I am... when I don’t ever wanna be...

@POCD/RealEventOCD You're so welcome. 💜 Certainty DOESN'T exist. OCD lies. OCD tells us we need to know with certainty but CERTAINTY doesn't exist and WE DON'T NEED CERTAINTY. We can live with uncertainty! We can tolerate uncertainty! ❤️ AWWW I'm sorry you're going through this. You'll definitely go through. I don't want to reassure you but remember, Your OCD doesn't you. You are not your OCD!

Your OCD doesn't define you*

If it is HOCD, POCD, and real event OCD... I hope to god it is... because I’m so stressed out because of all of this... I’m depressed because it constantly makes me think I’m attracted to my friends and it feels so real... and the real event OCD stemming from my HOCD and POCD don’t make anything better... 😞😞😞