It feels like I’ve just found out I really don’t love him. I don’t really feel peace but ocd is making me think I do. I think. I don’t know I’m not anxious at all anymore they’re just feelings. Can ocd be feelings

Like I’m just walking around feeling like this. It doesn’t feel like I’m obsessing any longer. And even when I’m not thinking about it I feel like I’m still feeling it

OCD is feelings. OCD is how your feelings react to your thoughts in the long run. The same thing happened to me

Like where it just feels that you really don’t? Idk it’s weird idk how to explain it

I have felt this exact same way for days or weeks and I couldn‘t put it into words. I feel like I‘m just in denial and trying to blame my OCD. It makes me so sad

It’s like it’s not making me sad. But it’s making me more so melancholy and like feel weird and nervous around him. It feels like I’m just refusing it to be the truth or like refusing to let go. I feel so odd like I don’t want this but my mind is romanticizing being single and such. It’s so weird

@cozycat Sounds like your ruminating , the more you ruminate the deeper you fall in your thoughts . I’ve felt like that, then my brain switched into to something else and I realized it was all a lie. For you , you will know if you guys break up, once that happens you will know for sure. Think of it like this, if you really don’t love him why would you be seeking help and not just leave the relationship. It’s because you care because there’s love.

@Tjae N. I really want it to be all a lie. I love our home and our little family and I have loved this man so deeply since I met him 7 years ago. He has always been my home. I don’t want to lose him I just feel so odd now. I’ve been dealing with this for 5 months now

@cozycat You doing ERP?

@Tjae N. I just started doing scripting. I’ve only done it once

@cozycat Try ERP , I’m going to try medications when I see my psychiatrist. At one point I was convinced I fell out of love with my girl. She broke up with me and those thoughts were invalidated so quick, we got back together pretty fast. Now I still get irrational thoughts. I recently thought I was gay.. then I got past that I really realized the mind is powerful. Whatever it is thinking it will make your reality seem that way . I look back seeing how blinded I was by those thoughts and it’s crazy . Rn unfortunately I’m obsessing over something else which sucks but, if your mind ever got latched on to something else you will see you most likely still love him

@Tjae N. I know it just doesn’t feel like ocd so it just simply feels like reality. Is that a stage of ocd

@cozycat When I fell like I fell out of love. There were times I just wasn’t really thinking about it and it felt like my thoughts stopped and it’s now reality . I soon later realized it wasn’t . For you specifically it’s the uncertainty . I’d talk to your bf/husband and maybe discuss this and maybe try to get a “break”.

@Tjae N. Also I’m starting to do excerise weekly , bonding execersises with my partner to strengthen our love . I’d try that, set one day aside where you guys just bond and nothing else

@Tjae N. I don’t think I necessarily want to take a break

@cozycat What do you want to do

@Tjae N. Stay with him