I've been really struggling with religious ocd for ages now and I feel so crippled by this one thought I keep having. Usually I think of a bad situation for no reason and then I have to ruminate in my mind if I would rather that bad thing happen and go to heaven or would I rather it not happen and not not to heaven and my brain came up with would I rather die right now and not go to heaven or give away my life to live so basically I can't win. I already doubt i don't believe enough so it's latching onto that. I'm in constant fear that I gave away my soul and I don't know how to stop that fear.

You belong to God. Nothing in this whole world can separate yourself from God. It says: “What shall we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us? Since he did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won’t he also give us everything else? Who dares accuse us whom God has chosen for his own? No one—for God himself has given us right standing with himself. Who then will condemn us? No one—for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God’s right hand, pleading for us.” Romans 8:31-39 Even if you willing sold your soul—which you have not. If you want, you should watch testimonies of those who have sold their soul and came back to God. Maybe that may help, but only if you feel like that is a good idea

I understand, if there is one thing you should remember is that you are not your thoughts. Sometimes I had those thoughts. But Jesus is always with you. I hope I helped, and I here to talk anytime ❤️

Hello, I don’t know how much my experience will help you because I am Christian, so is it okay to ask what religion you are?

I have had intrusive blasphemous thoughts for 6 years. One of my worst parts were thinking “It would he blasphemous to think/say/imagine this”.

I would always seek reassurance and avoid the Holy Bible and praying. Once I read about other people’s testimonies than I would be calm for sometime. If someone were to sell their soul, they would 100% know and be sure

To sell your soul is a big deal. But what makes our God an amazing everlasting loving Father is that not only can He give you someone their soul back, but He can also forgive them

If you don’t mind, what exactly do you mean by bad situation?

I’m sorry if I am not much help, for me what helped me was reading and listening to other testimonies. It shows how God can forgive everything, there is no such thing as unforgivable.

Why do you think that if this happens you will not enter Heaven?

The only reason why we are allowed to be with our Heavenly Father is because His only sin died for us. God can and will forgive all sins.

A person only sells their soul because they want to sell it. You know your soul belongs to God, in the Holy Bible it says “I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all, and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father's hand.” John 10:28-29