I hate life, my life at least. I hate all the terrible things I’ve done, I can’t believe I’ve ever done them. People say leave it in the past, but I can’t. I hate myself so much. I want to die. I hate my mind, I hate everything about myself. As soon as I move out, I’m going to isolate from the world. K*lling myself is too good for me, I deserve to live out my life in dread.

I'm going through the exact same thing. You're not alone. Please don't end your life. Please stay. Sending you so much love. Don't let OCD win. Please call Suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255 Or text the suicide prevention textline: 741741

I feel the exact say way. I think those things all the time. But belive me...the fact you show so much remorse and hatred to what you've done ..no matter how bad it was...shows you've grown so much as a human, your not that person anymore. You've spent to much time punishing yourself for your past..but it's that past..its behind you. No matter how recent these things were..its your past...and you can learn and move on from it. Don't spend your life punishing yourself. Live your life how you want..If your like me..you do want to live a good life just feel you don't deserve to. Well I'm telling you that you 100% deserve all the happiness in the world.

I feel the same exact way right now. You’re not alone.