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I'm going through the exact same thing. You're not alone. Please don't end your life. Please stay. Sending you so much love. Don't let OCD win. Please call Suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255 Or text the suicide prevention textline: 741741
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I feel the exact say way. I think those things all the time. But belive me...the fact you show so much remorse and hatred to what you've done ..no matter how bad it was...shows you've grown so much as a human, your not that person anymore. You've spent to much time punishing yourself for your past..but it's that past..its behind you. No matter how recent these things were..its your past...and you can learn and move on from it. Don't spend your life punishing yourself. Live your life how you want..If your like me..you do want to live a good life just feel you don't deserve to. Well I'm telling you that you 100% deserve all the happiness in the world.
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Thanks, it just feels impossible to forgive myself, I really don’t want to hurt anyone, I’m scared about these thoughts though, and not to mention my past, I hope you find happiness someday too
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@OCDHaver What exactly did you do even
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@Lucywilefire Just a lot of gross things, I’ve posted some things before. You commented on one of my posts earlier, but I’m just ashamed
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@OCDHaver Dude my ocd told me im a murderer because i said a joke when i was 13 .
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@Lucywilefire That sucks, OCD really is crazy
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@OCDHaver Thank you! Always remember these thoughts and feelings mean nothing. It's ocd. No matter what.
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@🌸 Hey 🌸, I'm having a very hard time. :( Do you have Instagram? Can we talk? :(
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@itsAnna Hey of course! My insta is unknownocd :)
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@🌸 Thank you so much, dear! I'll message you😭💜
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@🌸 I'm @princess.anna_19
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I feel the same exact way right now. You’re not alone.
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I look back at various past events in my life where I said or did things that I feel really guilty, disgusted, and ashamed about. I replay them in my head for hours. I feel anxious about crossing paths with people that I've hurt or upset in the past or who perceive me badly, to the point that I will avoid going out in public as much as possible. I go out for work, errands, appointments, and occasionally to eat (even though those all give me a lot of anxiety), but I avoid community events where people might recognize me and I tend to isolate myself. The only people I see regularly are my boyfriend, my parents, and my coworkers. I live in a small community and I'm worried about people confronting me publicly and proving what a bad person I must be.
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It’s never been this bad before. I feel like I’ll never get better. Every day I remember new things to feel guilty about and new fears pop into my head. What if I get doxxed? What if I said something online that could get me in trouble? What if I was hacked? What if someone is looking through every post, every message, every account I’ve ever made. I feel like I’ve dug myself into a hole and there is no way out. I’m 21, I keep thinking “no one will have grace for you because of your age. You are an adult. You should have know better. You don’t deserve to get better”
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I need to find a solution fast to stop this way I’m living but I don’t think it’s possible, I’m in a constant state of pain from being tormented with guilt and warped memories. I know some of the memories to be true and some are all jumbled together so they get warped. It kills me to not know if I’m evil or not , I’m always thinking of the bad things I did when I was like 13 and didn’t know much about what’s truly right and wrong. I just feel like such a bad bad person , I don’t want any form of relationships at all because then I’ll have to confess everything bad I believe I’ve done or else I’m lying to them about who I am. I don’t really want therapy because I’m not confessing these memories or thoughts to a stranger especially because I’m only 16 and very socially awkward so I won’t be able to open up about this at all. I keep most of all of this in secrecy because I know nothing truly gets rid of the guilt. I also don’t allow myself any sympathy anymore because I just think I don’t deserve that either because evil people don’t deserve any empathy , it’s so hard to live with this. I just needed to get this off my chest since I’ve got no one to talk too
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