Cancel culture is making OCD worse. It’s becoming evident to me that the world in which I’m living in is contributing to my fear, anxiety, and depression. I can’t escape constant judgment and ridicule from things I do. Also social media advertising “perfection/perfectionism” in just about everything and everyone is also damaging. I’m sold a lie every day while being told I’m a degenerate for whatever interests and hobbies I like by random faceless people on the internet. I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for a VERY long time. Since childhood. I can tell you I’ve never felt this suicidal in my entire life as I do in this moment. I can see why so many take their lives at 27 because the thought of it has been crossing my mind more and more frequently. (I’m still trying to fight it though. I haven’t completely given up yet) but I can’t shake this feeling of loathing and undeserving of happiness. I can’t forgive myself. I can’t move on past the pain in my life. And seeing everyone’s thoughts and opinions 24/7 online isn’t helping either…idk I just needed to rant. I needed to get this out I’m so tired and broken. I’m starting to think I’ll never be ok again.