My ROCD has caused me to cut several friends off lately, especially if I had any sort of romantic possibility with them. I can reason in my head why one of them in particular would have been incompatible with me and my life goals (his military lifestyle, which is great if that’s what you want but I know it would be hard for me, and some of his narcissistic tendencies and trust issues from the past), but I am still consumed with rumination over my decision. I keep telling myself that you can love somebody but not be IN love with them, and that sometimes not everything needs to be pursued. It isn’t fair to force myself to figure it all out immediately. And yet I am filled with constant worry and destructive thought patterns. It’s tiring. I’m tired.