I am a 19 year old female struggling with ocd about porn. I actively saw porn from when I was 15-18 but one day it hit me-"what if it is not consensual" and I am just so much scared. The sites I used to watch are still there but for some there are many with same name and different extension so I don't know what to do. I would never want to see something non-consensual and I am very much scared about this. What if the site got banned because it had some abusive stuff on it,what if I didn't see any problem with it-all of this is making me scared of myself. I am not a person who'll watch something which was illegal. I have stopped watching porn because of this but what to do with my past. I just don't know. I thought till now they were safe sites because they were the only ones available in my country but now I am in doubt.

Hope309

191d ago

Omg I’m going through something so similar. I’ve watched porn for awhile which I already feel guilty over because I guess it’s still taboo as a female to watch porn the one day I got scared for watching porn that wasn’t verified. I worried “what if the person is underage and I didn’t know it” so I switch the Anime/Hentai because I thought it was safer since it’s not real and now I’m freaking out that what if anime is seen as CP and I didn’t know it! I’m giving up porn altogether now but I’m still in a state of panic even though those videos I saw had some views as high a 13 million and nothing will probably happen to me but still I feel terrible like I didn’t know 😔