TW : ANTIDEPRESSANT SIDE EFFECTS Question for everyone, i don't really think i'm a depressed person? i have OCD and sometimes it can be a few weeks where i'm afraid to socialize and all that but i can still eat and attend classes, same with anxiety, this antidepressant (Zoloft 50mg) i've taken it before and it worked and i felt great, i stopped it mid september and started again around October 27th? that little time slot where i wasn't taking it consistently i felt great too! From October 27th until now, I feel not like myself anymore? I don't want to eat 90% of the time, i have difficulty staying asleep and i'm having really bad suicidal thoughts to the point where i don't want to be alone cause i'm genuinely afraid i'll do something. I'm not a suicidal person, im petrified of death, i have contamination OCD, if i think something is filled with germs / could possibly harm me i don't take it. My mom thinks I actually want these thoughts but I don't. I have to keep taking it until I see my doctor on monday but both experiences i've had with antidepressants have sucked now, and I just don't want to take them anymore. There are moments where it feels like i can "break free" from the fog and feel the urge to eat or call a friend to hang out or even participate in normal activities and then it just immediately gets blocked. What do you guys recommend I do? ://

I went to talk to a psychiatrist based off my Nocd therapists recommendation. I had a very hard week beforehand where I had anxiety so bad I couldn't leave my bed. It seems like once I get my period my anxiety and everything dissipated some so I talked to the psychiatrist. Anyways, I was immediately put off by her because she told me she didn't have any information on me included in the referral for one reason or another. So I had to basically "fill her in" on my life story. I have anxiety disorder, panic disorder, OCD and PTSD. I told her these things and how hard the last week had been. She started asking questions like I had bipolar disorder, which I don't have. She then wanted me to take buspar and Zoloft TOGETHER daily. I know for a fact you never start two medications daily at once. You don't know which one is causing symptoms if you do. So I immediately didn't like that. I asked her about Zoloft specifically daily because it is an SSRI what I should do if it gave me thoughts of harm for myself. She told me "just go to the hospital".... Now, I don't wanna say that was the worst possible thing she could have said to me, but it was. Because now my OCD is spiraling that just my general harm OCD thoughts are enough to mean I need to go to the hospital. It had been 2 days and I cannot stop obsessing that maybe I'm depressed or suicidal because of this. I know I don't want anything to happen to me. I love my family and my friends. I am scared of death. But the thought is sticky and it's been so, so frustrating. My anxiety has been so frustrating. I feel so lost and like nothing I'm trying to fix my issues is working very well. NOCD therapy has been one of the only things to help in the long term, but I still get terrified of certain obsessions like suicide. I don't really know what to do, if anyone has any advice or any personal experience that may help, anything would be nice right now. I've felt so lost trying to figure it all out.

For starters I was on this medicine before i remember the first few weeks were very scary and debilitating. I don’t remember why I stopped taking it , it was about 7 months ago. but I just recently started back because my ocd and anxiety has been off the chain. I keep having bad thoughts about the side affects and I’m terrified like “ what if I have a seizure” can anybody share an experience? Anyone on Zoloft here. Thanks !

So I have been diagnosed with GAD and OCD and my psychiatrist prescribed me with zoloft 🤔 but I dont know im really hesitant to start medication because im scared of the side effects and ik afraid of relying on a medication for a long time. Does anyone else take zoloft? What is it like? Any side effects?