Does anyone with TOCD has like „two personalities“ inside of themselves. Like I have my „old selve“ were i liked to dress girly and be a lady and so on, which now often feels fake and like i am in denial. And then I have the „Trans“ side that feels really scary like i am a man inside. I do try to supress the side that tells me „I am a man“. I don‘t know which „person“ is the true one inside of me :( Maybe someone can help?

BradOCD

Date posted: 4y

I get this with HOCD it feels like there’s too people fighting and currently the “you most gay” self is winning and I’m scared of my old self. But on the rare occasions I get my old self back I remember how much I miss it

Whatabtme

Date posted: 4y

Yes I can relate, my trans ocd and soocd come and go at different times but lately I've been feeling that for both, it's really scary

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Date posted: 4y

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Janajana

Date posted: 4y

Do you started to Identity as genderqueer after you have got TOCD? This kind of scares me right now.. :(

Janajana

Date posted: 4y

@Bimmi Thank you :) . I just always had a masculine side to me but I‘ve Never questioned my gender till now. Does this mean I came to the realization that I‘m not really a girl? I‘m scared because beeing a girl always gave me some comfort, maybe because the People around me loved me like that,but if i‘m beeing honest i loved beeing loved by people so it was never really a proble, till i started to question if i always faked it..

Janajana

Date posted: 4y

@Bimmi Yes I agree thank you.

Janajana

Date posted: 4y

Yes I totally miss beeing sure about my gender and i want to feel like that again:(

noaarios

Date posted: 2y

Hi, how do you feel now?

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