It feels as if my new theme is making me scared of being home alone... like it petrifies me, I think i'm suffering from suicidal OCD and i can't look at the pill bottles we have without feeling anxious, the bleach bottle, anything... this theme is worse than HOCD which I suffered with in the past, because at least then I could deal with being home alone as long as I distract myself, with this it feels like there's no distraction. I recently restarted my zoloft and that's when i started feeling like this and i don't know if it's from the zoloft OR just a trigger response because i know the side effects can be suicidal thoughts, i hate the idea of death. Death scares me so much, I will avoid certain situations if I feel like there's a chance I will die. I will avoid certain foods, my mom has to check my medicine incase I take the wrong one. EX : I have a headache so I take tylenol, ill look at the bottle and it will say tylenol but for some reason my brain still thinks it's the wrong bottle. This theme is hurting me so much. I want to cry, my mom doesn't think it's my OCD which hurts even worse. I don't know what to do.