When you can’t tell the difference, that means it’s ocd. Ocd clouds your mind and tampers with your emotions. So you don’t know what to feel. And the more you ruminate on it, the more it’s going to bother you. Let your thoughts and feelings come and go and don’t try to analyze them. No matter what they are. It will get better when you don’t worry about them. You can do this!
But what if you now feel your attractions have changed? Or is it possible that all my life I had been mistaking anxiety for attraction so I’ve never actually been attractive to women? Because I have noticed attractive men but I had always just been jealous or seen them as a threat. And I would always feel some sort of anxiety when I found a women attractive but I always thought that was just normal when you were trying to ‘Persue’ someone. Now I worry that I was just mislead the whole time
You were not. Try to trust your experience. I have that same thought, but I am thinking that is just OCD. you are the expert on you.