I feel like one of the hardest parts of dealing with sexually themed is OCD is the confusion around feelings. Physiologically, there aren’t a lot of differences between arousal and anxiety. It’s basically impossible to tell the difference between fear and desire when you have OCD, which sucks. It’s a vicious cycle, and the only way out is to try and disengage, acknowledging physical feelings and sensations and continuing on with life. Doesn’t make it any easier.

But what if you now feel your attractions have changed? Or is it possible that all my life I had been mistaking anxiety for attraction so I’ve never actually been attractive to women? Because I have noticed attractive men but I had always just been jealous or seen them as a threat. And I would always feel some sort of anxiety when I found a women attractive but I always thought that was just normal when you were trying to ‘Persue’ someone. Now I worry that I was just mislead the whole time