I feel like one of the hardest parts of dealing with sexually themed is OCD is the confusion around feelings. Physiologically, there aren’t a lot of differences between arousal and anxiety. It’s basically impossible to tell the difference between fear and desire when you have OCD, which sucks. It’s a vicious cycle, and the only way out is to try and disengage, acknowledging physical feelings and sensations and continuing on with life. Doesn’t make it any easier.

When you can’t tell the difference, that means it’s ocd. Ocd clouds your mind and tampers with your emotions. So you don’t know what to feel. And the more you ruminate on it, the more it’s going to bother you. Let your thoughts and feelings come and go and don’t try to analyze them. No matter what they are. It will get better when you don’t worry about them. You can do this!

But what if you now feel your attractions have changed? Or is it possible that all my life I had been mistaking anxiety for attraction so I’ve never actually been attractive to women? Because I have noticed attractive men but I had always just been jealous or seen them as a threat. And I would always feel some sort of anxiety when I found a women attractive but I always thought that was just normal when you were trying to ‘Persue’ someone. Now I worry that I was just mislead the whole time