i wanna fucking scream and cry over my intrusive thoughts. it's incredibly disturbing and won't stop. i can't stop it. i can't not perform a compulsion(every though it only makes them worse, and i can't ignore it. i hate this. i hate myself. i just want to go to sleep without thinking about this please. i feel so sick and ashamed of myself. i'm genuinely so scared i'm gonna hurt someone. idk what to do anymore. i just want help.

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Date posted: 4y

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Celi

Date posted: 4y

thank you so much. it really means a lot. i'm trying to push through it all everyday. it just kinda weres you down. plus it does help that i'm tired. i'm gonna rest now. again thank you so much for the reply and the support. i hope you have a wonderful day or rest of your day <3

briii🌸

Date posted: 4y

I know exactly what you mean. For me the past couple months for me were dormant and then one day it came back it wasnt as bad as it was a couple months back. What I did was try to stay out of my head lol I know it’s sounds ridiculous but it’s true. I did things is LOVED during that constantly passed the time. Eventually I wasn’t focusing on the OCD thoughts anymore. But there creeping back on me .. but not as bad

Celi

Date posted: 4y

thank you the advice! it's so hard for me sometimes because i'm constantly in my head, but i'll try that! my thoughts usually disappear when i am preoccupied so maybe this will be good for me. thank you so much for replying <3

Lms526

Date posted: 4y

Do you have a therapist that understands OCD and specializes in ERP? Doing compulsions is learned behavior and the only part of the OCD cycle you have control over. I'm not saying it will be easy, but you CAN learn not to do your compulsions. I lived with OCD for 37 years and never knew it. I thought OCD was just handwashing and liking things neat and organized. I had neither. I was finally diagnosed in August at age 45. So if I can stop doing my compulsions anyone can. Recovery is possible, but it will take time and a lot of hard work. But you aren't alone.

Celi

Date posted: 4y

no i don't have a therapist or an OCD diagnosis. but i've been meaning to get in touch with one. the issue is i'm a minor so all of the appointment scheduling has been left in the hands of my parents and tbh i believe they've forgotten. i've brought it up time and time again to them, but they always forget which is understandable my parents are very busy people. i've been using NOCD to help with my intrusive thoughts and i can honestly say it has. not as well as a therapist would of course lol. i have shown the app to my parents and even talked to them about talking to a therapist here. they dismisses it at first but i wanna bring it to their attentions again

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