- Username
- Celi
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Hey, sorry you’re going through this right now. OCD is truly an awful disorder that no one deserves. I’m sending you tons of support and strength, and I’m rooting for you. Don’t forget that your intrusive thoughts are just that—intrusive. They do not define you. You’re stronger than this, and will overcome this. Never forget that you’re not alone. You have an entire community here behind you, ready to help you whenever you need it.
thank you so much. it really means a lot. i'm trying to push through it all everyday. it just kinda weres you down. plus it does help that i'm tired. i'm gonna rest now. again thank you so much for the reply and the support. i hope you have a wonderful day or rest of your day <3
@Celi I understand that it’s hard, but the fact that you’re still here, managing everyday just proves that you’re stronger than OCD and can overcome it. I do agree that it becomes incredibly exhausting, so please get your rest. Don’t forget that you have an entire community here for you, snd that there are resources out there to help you whenever you need it.
I know exactly what you mean. For me the past couple months for me were dormant and then one day it came back it wasnt as bad as it was a couple months back. What I did was try to stay out of my head lol I know it’s sounds ridiculous but it’s true. I did things is LOVED during that constantly passed the time. Eventually I wasn’t focusing on the OCD thoughts anymore. But there creeping back on me .. but not as bad
thank you the advice! it's so hard for me sometimes because i'm constantly in my head, but i'll try that! my thoughts usually disappear when i am preoccupied so maybe this will be good for me. thank you so much for replying <3
Do you have a therapist that understands OCD and specializes in ERP? Doing compulsions is learned behavior and the only part of the OCD cycle you have control over. I'm not saying it will be easy, but you CAN learn not to do your compulsions. I lived with OCD for 37 years and never knew it. I thought OCD was just handwashing and liking things neat and organized. I had neither. I was finally diagnosed in August at age 45. So if I can stop doing my compulsions anyone can. Recovery is possible, but it will take time and a lot of hard work. But you aren't alone.
no i don't have a therapist or an OCD diagnosis. but i've been meaning to get in touch with one. the issue is i'm a minor so all of the appointment scheduling has been left in the hands of my parents and tbh i believe they've forgotten. i've brought it up time and time again to them, but they always forget which is understandable my parents are very busy people. i've been using NOCD to help with my intrusive thoughts and i can honestly say it has. not as well as a therapist would of course lol. i have shown the app to my parents and even talked to them about talking to a therapist here. they dismisses it at first but i wanna bring it to their attentions again
does anyone else feel like their compulsion is also their intrusive thought? like my brain says "if you do *intrusive thought*, you wont deal with said intrusive thought again." i really need help because it deals with harm ocd and i really dont want to do anything bad. im so scared. i know it's lying, but it doesnt feel like it and i just feel so stressed and anxious.
i am so terrified i might hurt somebody. i have harm ocd, and lately, the things i do to make myself feel better (my compulsions) aren’t helping anymore and i don’t know what to do. i’m scared i have the urge to hurt somebody, specifically my family. i hate being in the same house as them out of fear i might want to one day grab something and kill them. i don’t. i would never dream of it. but i’m so terrified. i keep on posting about the same things, and i’m sorry, i just don’t know what else to do to make myself feel better. i know i’m supposed to sit with uncertainty, but it’s just so hard 🙁
i have been getting really gross intrusive thoughts. They have caused me to feel such intense guilt. It’s gone to the point I harmed myself and believe I deserve this harm. My parents had to hide all sharp objects from me so I don’t harm myself. I also have wanted to end my life due to the intensity and discomfort and disgust and repulsion these thoughts give me. I feel since I have these intrusive thoughts I do not deserve to live. I have been to a mental health emergency room and I felt better afterwards but it was temporary relief. I have been given medication for this (sleep since the intrusive thoughts and the fact that I have these intrusive thoughts keeps me awake unable to sleep, and pills for my OCD to potentially stop the intrusive thoughts and anxiety. But I was only given them last night so they will not work for a week or so). I don’t even feel comfortable saying the theme of them because I’m terrified of people thinking I am that and am so repulsed by the fact that still exists, I would never think anything like this out of my own will. If I heard anybody say the thoughts I have out loud , I would stay away from them, and be disgusted by them for saying it. I wouldn’t even vocalize these intrusive thoughts to a therapist because they would hate me which would be completely valid and understandable. I hate me too for thinking this. I don’t deserve to live. I live in constant guilt. I never got thought like this until these theme decided to ruin my fucking whole ass life. How do I remove these thoughts and guilt. I’m only a kid and I know I have a whole life ahead of me but I don’t deserve it for having these intrusive thoughts. I’ll get intrusive thoughts like wanting to harm somebody in a graphic way (WHICH I DO NOT WANT. I wouldn’t even get in a fight with somebody. I hate harming others.) these thoughts are 100% UNWANTED. They also developed at random. I was just scrolling on tiktok as one does then I got a super random intrusive thought. I fixated on it and obsessed over it and it caused worse and worse intrusive thoughts to come because of me fixating on it. I remember I had it once before (earleir I says I’ve never had thoughts like this untill the theme, the intrusive thought i had then was still bad and something I don’t think at all, but it was an extreme one) but I was able to acknowledge it was an intrusive thought and had nothing to do with me after freaking out for about a few hours. I don’t want to live with these thoughts. I don’t deserve the gift of life. I can’t stand up from guilt. I can’t eat on my own. I’ve tried everything. They’re constantly in my head. I DONT WANT THEM THERE. I DONT THINK LIKE THAT AT ALL. I am seeing a therapist on Thursday. They get so specific and disgusting. My compulsion is hitting myself in the head and screaming “no that’s gross ew”. As you can tell it harms me . But I think I deserve it. I can’t take any thing anyone says to me seriously because if they heard these intrusive thoughts all the pity would disappear.
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