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Okay so they say that people with OCD have a high standard of what they “should” be saying or thinking and that’s why it becomes obsessive because we over think every little thing. The stuff you’re experiencing is completely normal and most people would hear or think those things in passing and they wouldn’t have a second thought about it. You need to reduce your fear and work on exposures and reduce your fear of children as much as you can
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I should add, I experience the same problems and you’re not alone. You’ll get through this I promise
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@Anon1294 Ok thank you. I feel so guilty like what if I actually thought she was “hot” and if that makes me a horrible monster. I’m scared but thank you for your help
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@Just Breathe ❤️ You can think she’s pretty that’s perfectly normal to observe someone looks nice! It’s just because your brain is being hyper vigilant because you’re terrified of becoming something that you’re not. Intrusive thoughts don’t mean anything about who you truly are
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@Anon1294 But what if it wasn’t an intrusive thought and an actual opinion? That’s what I’m afraid of
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@Just Breathe ❤️ That right there was ocd trying to convince you a lie because you’re so terrified of that being reality. So basically, if your mind felt “healthy” at the moment, you’d see that picture and you could be like wow she’s such a pretty girl, it’s so sad she passed. Also that whole Travis Scott thing has made people very anxious and upset for so many reasons. So you’re anxious, you’re on edge, you’re having these intrusive thoughts that never end, and your brain is literally in fight or flight mode. So you see the pretty girls picture and your brain gets a zap of fear. You think “omg I just felt something… was that attraction??” And it was just fear. But now your brains natural instinct is to PROTECT you from this fear. You start to have more intrusive thoughts to protect yourself. You start to prove it wrong by ruminating, googling, finding reassurance. And like a drug, it only lasts a little bit before it happens again. So the way to fix it is to expose yourself. Go find that picture and stare at it. Feel the anxiety it gives you until it gets less and less. Go look at pictures of children, watch videos of them on YouTube. Find the things that scare you and stare them in the face until the fear backs down. That’s how you get better
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@Anon1294 Oh ok thanks
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@Just Breathe ❤️ It takes lots of work but it’s possible to get better
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I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I can’t remember what happened, it’s like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, I’ll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like “ I’m glad I’m not having any thoughts about this, I’m glad I’m having normal thoughts and not thinking anything” I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I don’t know what happened, my brain won’t let me remember. But I’ll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said “oh, I wouldn’t mind being attracted.” “He is attractive, and I’m attracted to him.” “I remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he is” “ It’s not wrong to be attracted” “ I don’t care about his age” .. something along the lines of that, and now I’m panicking super hard, because I’m worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that I’m a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible… I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didn’t say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldn’t say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasn’t wrong and it was okay. Maybe that’s why I’m so convinced I did that. I’m just spiraling super bad right now, I don’t know what to do or what to think, I don’t know if I said that or not… even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just don’t know what else to do… I’m really scared.
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Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
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Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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