Ok so I really need help I’m freaking out So I’ve heard a friend of mine say “that kid is hot” or something like that. She even said that Chucky the doll was hot but I don’t know if chucky is a kid or not but anyways I’ve heard my other friend say someone was cute and they looked like a minor. I saw a picture of a girl that passed from the Travis Scott concert that was 16 and before I knew her age because she didn’t look younger at all I had an intrusive thought that she was “hot” but was like no she’s just really pretty and now I’m freaking out because what if I’m a monster now? I don’t want anything to do with a minor ever! I don’t understand. Because people say things like my friend said and it doesn’t bother them but when my mind says things it freaks me the heck out. Is it normal to think or say those things? I’m lost. I think it’s wrong and I feel real icky and horrible about it.

POCD

Anon1294

Date posted: 4y

Okay so they say that people with OCD have a high standard of what they “should” be saying or thinking and that’s why it becomes obsessive because we over think every little thing. The stuff you’re experiencing is completely normal and most people would hear or think those things in passing and they wouldn’t have a second thought about it. You need to reduce your fear and work on exposures and reduce your fear of children as much as you can

Anon1294

Date posted: 4y

I should add, I experience the same problems and you’re not alone. You’ll get through this I promise

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@Anon1294 Ok thank you. I feel so guilty like what if I actually thought she was “hot” and if that makes me a horrible monster. I’m scared but thank you for your help

Anon1294

Date posted: 4y

@Just Breathe ❤️ You can think she’s pretty that’s perfectly normal to observe someone looks nice! It’s just because your brain is being hyper vigilant because you’re terrified of becoming something that you’re not. Intrusive thoughts don’t mean anything about who you truly are

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@Anon1294 But what if it wasn’t an intrusive thought and an actual opinion? That’s what I’m afraid of

Anon1294

Date posted: 4y

@Just Breathe ❤️ That right there was ocd trying to convince you a lie because you’re so terrified of that being reality. So basically, if your mind felt “healthy” at the moment, you’d see that picture and you could be like wow she’s such a pretty girl, it’s so sad she passed. Also that whole Travis Scott thing has made people very anxious and upset for so many reasons. So you’re anxious, you’re on edge, you’re having these intrusive thoughts that never end, and your brain is literally in fight or flight mode. So you see the pretty girls picture and your brain gets a zap of fear. You think “omg I just felt something… was that attraction??” And it was just fear. But now your brains natural instinct is to PROTECT you from this fear. You start to have more intrusive thoughts to protect yourself. You start to prove it wrong by ruminating, googling, finding reassurance. And like a drug, it only lasts a little bit before it happens again. So the way to fix it is to expose yourself. Go find that picture and stare at it. Feel the anxiety it gives you until it gets less and less. Go look at pictures of children, watch videos of them on YouTube. Find the things that scare you and stare them in the face until the fear backs down. That’s how you get better

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@Anon1294 Oh ok thanks

Anon1294

Date posted: 4y

@Just Breathe ❤️ It takes lots of work but it’s possible to get better

Givenup

Date posted: 23w

Please someone help me...

PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME IM LOSING MY MIND PLEASE Youtubers are constantly getting accused of doing p*dophilic activity and inappropriately messaging minors and its making me think my real events are as bad or as worse as them... Ive vented a lot to a lot of people in the PM's about my OCD... some of them younger (minors)... because I wanted reassurance from everyone and anyone... but this situation triggers me the most because I was venting about my 18+ HOCD situations... In an HOCD support group I was in, I vented to 2 minors in the PM's about my 18+ HOCD situations... The leader of the support group (that i vented to) was 17... I was 19 at the time... the other minor i vented to was younger (14-15)... the younger one told me she was uncomfortable when i vented to her in the PM's twice... The 14-15 year old said she was uncomfortable the first time and i tried to stop venting to her... after she said i was a bad person for supporting trump, i vented to her again because her saying i was a bad person triggered me... she said she was uncomfortable for the second time and then i blocked her... i kept asking the leader of the support group for reassurance for my 18+ HOCD situations for months because she kept giving me reassurance... i thought she was cute but didnt pursue her because of my age... i dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP or a groomer in any way... ChatGPT just told me I inappropriately messaged minors when I dont ever want to be like those dirty disgusting youtubers who inappropriately messaged them and did P3do stuff with them at all!!!! Im so triggered please someone help me!!!

heart_random

Date posted: 13w

I'm disturbed

There is one Athlete who is a month younger than me and he looks extremely young. Earlier this year I used to like him and his personality a lot but ever since I developed pocd, I keep getting scared over it. Add to that I just searched up on Twitter if finding him attractive is pedophilia or not and there was a tweet which was telling about 19 year old girls lusting over him when he was 15 years ago. I looked at his 15 year old pic thoroughly as a compulsion and he looked young in that but also beautiful/cute like any other teenage boy with pretty genes. I freaked out over thinking that he was beautiful and felt afraid that 'Was it sexual?' Then for a moment I tried to see in replies if anyone says that it is normal for a 19 year old to think a fifteen year old boy is beautiful and not pedophilia. Then I realized that why I was trying to justify a wrong for myself and I'm just so disturbed bcz why was I trying to justify it?

Bleebloop

Date posted: 12w

How to deal with someone saying your OCD is right

I’m. Lowkey freaking out a bit at the moment. So I’ve had kind of a thing for hyperfemininity most of my life (really just on men but that’s beside the point). A lot of what I find attractive is similar to Sabrina carpenter’s aesthetic. Like frilly lingerie for example. There was this clip where she was wearing like a babydoll or whatever they’re called and everyone said she looked like a toddler. I thought it was ok bc I’m only attracted to adults, and in this case it’s only concerning my attraction to men, but I was listening to a podcast today about Sabrina Carpenter (bc while I do think she’s very pretty I disagree with a lot of what she does) and the person speaking said she presented as a “sexy baby” and that it was pedophilic. Now I’m pretty frightened because I can’t just go “that’s false attraction” and be done with it. I AM attracted to hyperfemininity and now I feel like a predator for it. I’m scared

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