Ok so I really need help I’m freaking out So I’ve heard a friend of mine say “that kid is hot” or something like that. She even said that Chucky the doll was hot but I don’t know if chucky is a kid or not but anyways I’ve heard my other friend say someone was cute and they looked like a minor. I saw a picture of a girl that passed from the Travis Scott concert that was 16 and before I knew her age because she didn’t look younger at all I had an intrusive thought that she was “hot” but was like no she’s just really pretty and now I’m freaking out because what if I’m a monster now? I don’t want anything to do with a minor ever! I don’t understand. Because people say things like my friend said and it doesn’t bother them but when my mind says things it freaks me the heck out. Is it normal to think or say those things? I’m lost. I think it’s wrong and I feel real icky and horrible about it.

Okay so they say that people with OCD have a high standard of what they “should” be saying or thinking and that’s why it becomes obsessive because we over think every little thing. The stuff you’re experiencing is completely normal and most people would hear or think those things in passing and they wouldn’t have a second thought about it. You need to reduce your fear and work on exposures and reduce your fear of children as much as you can

I should add, I experience the same problems and you’re not alone. You’ll get through this I promise

@Anon1294 Ok thank you. I feel so guilty like what if I actually thought she was “hot” and if that makes me a horrible monster. I’m scared but thank you for your help

@Just Breathe ❤️ You can think she’s pretty that’s perfectly normal to observe someone looks nice! It’s just because your brain is being hyper vigilant because you’re terrified of becoming something that you’re not. Intrusive thoughts don’t mean anything about who you truly are

@Anon1294 But what if it wasn’t an intrusive thought and an actual opinion? That’s what I’m afraid of

@Just Breathe ❤️ That right there was ocd trying to convince you a lie because you’re so terrified of that being reality. So basically, if your mind felt “healthy” at the moment, you’d see that picture and you could be like wow she’s such a pretty girl, it’s so sad she passed. Also that whole Travis Scott thing has made people very anxious and upset for so many reasons. So you’re anxious, you’re on edge, you’re having these intrusive thoughts that never end, and your brain is literally in fight or flight mode. So you see the pretty girls picture and your brain gets a zap of fear. You think “omg I just felt something… was that attraction??” And it was just fear. But now your brains natural instinct is to PROTECT you from this fear. You start to have more intrusive thoughts to protect yourself. You start to prove it wrong by ruminating, googling, finding reassurance. And like a drug, it only lasts a little bit before it happens again. So the way to fix it is to expose yourself. Go find that picture and stare at it. Feel the anxiety it gives you until it gets less and less. Go look at pictures of children, watch videos of them on YouTube. Find the things that scare you and stare them in the face until the fear backs down. That’s how you get better

@Anon1294 Oh ok thanks