kpoplover
- Date posted
- 3y
NicaNica
- Date posted
- 3y
Just because you have a thought doesn’t mean you have to take it seriously 🌸
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
****HUGE TRIGGER WARNING**** I just got discharged from an inpatient facility for being actively suicidal. The difference between suicidal intrusive thoughts and being actively suicidal (for me and my experience) is intrusive thoughts are like a flash of a mental image/video of me doing something, but it’s distressing and I’m anxious. Wanting to commit suicide was planned out, and it felt like my life was a hellscape and death would be a release from all of it. It’s wanting water while you’re on fire. It felt like the only way out. Suicide wasn’t imagining the act of it, it was trying to escape something else. What you’re describing sounds like an intrusive thought, I don’t think you’re in danger of acting on it. If this post isn’t appropriate, someone delete it or comment for me to delete. I tried to debate whether I should post, but I thought maybe someone’s experience might help you tell the difference between active SI and OCD.
kpoplover kpoplover
- Date posted
- 3y
these thoughts give me major distress, i had to leave the room the bottles were in because that's how nervous I got.
Lms526Lms526
- Date posted
- 3y
@Lex Also remember that intrusive thoughts are ego dystonic. Thats a fancy way of saying OCD thoughts are at odds with your morals, character, and values. It also sounds like you are struggling with action thought fusion. This is very common in people with OCD. It basically means that you believe the thought will eventually lead to action. You think "I must want to do this on some level. If I didn't, I wouldn't have these thoughts" But you can't control your thoughts. But you CAN control how you respond to the thoughts. OCD will say anything to keep you under its control. It is a bully and a liar and this is one of its biggest lies. I've also found it helps to say things like "Maybe, Maybe not." Or just NO!. Another good trick is to do the opposite of what OCD wants you to do. For example, if OCD wants you to leave the room with the bottle stay longer. OCD doesn't like being ignored or resisted. So it will throw at fit. But eventually, when it sees you aren't going to react the way it wants you to (with anxiety and by doing compulsions) it will give up.
kpoplover kpoplover
- Date posted
- 3y
@Lms526 thank you, i'll try, it's just a bit hard haha
AllegrettoAllegretto
- Date posted
- 3y
Thoughts aren’t facts. Just remind yourself that it’s OCD trying to bully you. Maybe write down what it’s telling you about the situation and then remind yourself that you don’t have to agree with what it’s saying or telling you to do. OCD is just a big ol bully who wants to get a reaction from you.
Lms526Lms526
- Date posted
- 3y
I have had this same thought. Sometimes, I will go to get some pain relievers and will have the thought that I should take a whole handful. But there is a big difference between a suicidal intrusive thought and suicidal ideation. I have experienced both. Suicidial OCD tends to come on suddenly and are scary. They occur without warning even when you aren't depressed. Suicidial ideation tends to develop slowly over time. The thoughts aren't scary. Suicidial ideation should be considered an emergency. If you or someone you know is doing things like writing a note, planning an attempt, or talking about suicide, take it very seriously. Call 911 immediately. I hope that makes sense. Just because OCD feel true it doesn't mean they are. They are just thoughts. Don't give them more meaning than they deserve.
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- Date posted
- 11w
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