Is it because i am scared to be this and thats why i am using hocd as an excuse because now it feels like that… what do i do?!

I had sexuality OCD. Just I am actually homosexual. So it was vice versa for me. What helped me was just not thinking about it through ERP therapy. Attraction is not rational. You feel it. I knew I felt attraction to women but I was rationally thinking if I feel the same for men. That’s showed me that I am not actually attracted to men. Maybe it is the same for you. If you rationally think about if you are homosexual it’s maybe just OCD

Yeah I understand but its like I question everything what if I actually do feel attracted what if it is not rational and just my scare telling me its rational cause i want it to be that ways??

@Brave through Hey I understand this. OCD can actually almost convince you to be attracted to someone you are actually not. What could help is maybe if you look at who you were/are attracted to. When does it feel good/existing/euphoric and when do you feel anxious/scared/uncomfortable/disgusted. If you feel the first way it is a sign of actual attraction the second one can be the fear around OCD attraction.

@Milan.G Omg this is so helpful. I was always stressed about whether the attraction was real and I was ashamed and uncomfortable or false attraction that ocd has forced me to believe in my head. Thank you <3

@California2325 Hey I am glad it helped :)

@Milan.G I understand but then my mind again goes to what if what was real attraction and its like they feel so true and real that how am I supposed to not pay attention to this ?!?

@Brave through I know that struggle. I sometimes still have it. I used the therapy method were you accept the thought but not neutralise (means in that’s case react to the thought by overthinking). That’s sounds easy but it is extremely complicated but possible. It would mean that you think: I wonder if I like that gender. And you leave it by that. What helped me was focussing on the sexuality I know for sure by reading romance books, watched films, wrote stories. That’s helped me to not think so often about the other gender. I hope that you can get rid of it :)