There are so many levels to erp i just feel completely numb emotionally.. to a certain level i am able to resist but then again it keeps flowing continuously.. obviously with less intensity.. so exhausted..

I can't anymore.. Erp is very traumatic for me. It's about a sexual topic, and I come out with those scenes in my head, as well as photos of that person where their face makes me think of sexual grimaces. Every time, but every time during practice, I get detailed scenes and groinal. To me it looks like real sexual excitement, and I don't know exactly how to be immune to something that is sex in itself! I don't believe it's part of ocd at all..because it won't come off me and I can't believe it's not me

does it also happen to you that during exposure to erp you can imagine that act and scene in detail, and feel some confused excitement that leaves you stressed because it is hard to believe that it is part of OCD, it seems so real! When i can imagine it in detail and feel it like i can actually get arousel about it.

today again...erp and a strong feeling that it somehow arousel me and creates adrenaline, and the longer I expose myself to the thoughts, the more wild and detailed the images in my head become, accompanied by the feeling that I like reality as well...