Does anyone else have this weird feeling Ike their waiting for something as to happen. Like wrest I may have done something truly horrendous to someone, but that I just don’t remember. I’m scared all the time, it’s like I’m just waiting for the day someone will speak out and make some sort of accusation against me and that I’ll suddenly remember what I’ve done. I just feel like I’m just waiting for something to happen, I’m always on edge and analyzing my mind, terrified I may have done something truly despicable. I don’t know, I miss when each day just felt normal and I had things to look forward to and didn’t feel like I was hiding something from everyone I know.

Thank you, I guess my false memories fall under being scared I may have touched someone inappropriately when I was younger or did even worse things. I really don’t remember anything or even thinking about this stuff or acting like that. So I’ll try to trust it’s just the OCD

@JP2323 I sincerely hope not, it’s just since I have done gross things in the past and have seen gross stuff, I’m scared I am and that my brain is suppressing a memory. But I hear that’s incredibly common with OCD

@JP2323 Thank you so much. It’s just difficult you know, but I’ll try to keep going, thank you for responding!

I don’t sadly, I know I’ve done a lot of bad and gross things that I’ve confessed to my friends, mom, therapist and even the suicide prevention hotline. They all tell me that I’m not a monster and that I’ve learned and can be better, and my therapist said she’s obligated to report real crimes and that she doesn’t feel any worry from what I’ve done so that’s good, but it’s just that little “what if” I suppose, my brain twists memories to be far worse than what they actually were