- Username
- cozymushroom
- Date posted
- 3y ago
As a really bad victim of rocd, I can confirm that it all passes. I thought I would never feel attraction to my bf ever again after getting this. But, I found that being happy with you relationship and not focusing on the thoughts help a lot. Live in the moment. Keep the thoughts to yourself and sit with them. I recently hangout with my boyfriend and we were cuddling in the couch. Wow! I never felt so much attraction! It's because I ignored my compulsions and moved on. Things have been pretty fantastic here on out. Again it doesn't last forever! Accept the thoughts as thoughts, and learn to respond to them in a good way! That's how I'm recovering from ROCD!
Thank you, this shit is really horrible and I want it all to go away
In this place too, you don't need to accept it, love is a choice, here for you friend ❤
It makes me feel like I don’t even want to make the choice. It feels so different from the beginning
@cozycat Ik, I know exactly how you feel, im in that exact same place. In the begging, I was desperately clamoring on to the relationship, now I'm numb and feel like I've found my truth, but please keep fighting friend. Don't lose what you love to this horrible horrible disease. ❤
@cozycat You're ok, everything's okay, you're not alone
My NOCD therapist said something helpful to me today regarding “feelings” - Feelings are subjective and when we make decisions based on them, we risk making emotional, rash decisions. She told me to make a pros and cons list. She also said to think more with “wise-mind” (that worksheet is really helpful, Idk if it’s an ocd standard one, but if you don’t know what I’m talking about, Google: wise mind worksheet)
Every time I get intrusive thoughts these days I just accept them as true without even thinking about it. What does that mean? My ocd is real? I just realized this a while ago but I didn’t even notice this whole week I had been doing that.
What does acceptance mean/ feel like? Because to me it just scares me and makes me feel like I’m giving into my OCD thoughts.
Basically. I’m scared that at some point I will feel no anxiety and ‘give in’ and accept it. I have a really hard time believing I have ocd (because I can’t get diagnosed because of my age) sometimes I feel like I do because I remember the days where I was crying on the floor with how real it felt and I DIDNT want it to be real. I worry that I am in denial and I’m just not accept it. Or that it’s suppressed. Or internalised homophobia. Anything really that means it’s all real. I have my moments where I feel normal again but they don’t last long. I wish I knew if it was hocd/ocd but then again I know I’d doubt it if I was told it was. But then again I feel like hearing a professional say ‘you have ocd’ would mean a lot to me. If anyone feels the same or similar I would love to know (btw reassurance very rarely helps me anymore. I just love knowing if I’m not alone and not going crazy) Maybe maybe not doesnt help. I always spiral more with that but I often use ‘I don’t need to know right now’ and that brings me some relief (not sure if it should but it does)
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