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Buddie, let me tell you. Ive battled with this for over a year now (and thats not to say it lasts that long i just didnt find what worked for me yet). Its hard, its fucking so hard i know. But what you need to do is self regulate. Every say 15 mins, release any tension you may have. The tension keeps us in a trauma response. Keep releasing every so often. When intrusive thoughts come in, and i know this is hard because i still battle with it, you HAVE TO SAY, “maybe, maybe not but im going to keep living my life as if not” EVERY SINGLE TIME. I swear this has been like changing. Im literally like a functioning human being now. I never thought id get here but my ocd is legit 90% better. Im here to talk if you want!
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life changing*
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- 3y ago
Thank you so much! Yes it feels very hard to accept that this may or may not be OCD. I do notice the tension when I get anxious and too worked up my head begins to feel tight. I’m just scared that I’m going to go or already am crazy and not know it. How do you suggest going on about depersonalization. How do I connect with myself again when it feels so scary and I want to nothing?
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I have the same fears as you and I've also been getting so much better by saying "maybe, maybe not." I'd recommend searching for videos on depersonalization. There are some good tips to help you feel connected again.
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Look up jordan hardgrave on youtube. Hes really knowledgeable! If you even have some extra money, id get his ebook. (Wouldnt join his inner cirlce group tho). But doing too much research can be a compulsion so only do it one day. Learn what you can. But the key, and it sounds like bullshit and impossible. But its what will get you better. Live life as normal. Think, yes im so uncomfortable. But im safe. Its just anxiety, the more i just let it flow the faster it will go away.
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It feels like I used to get so many intrusive thoughts in the beginning but now it’s less it’s only thoughts like what if I’m a p what if I’m a p what if I’m lying to myself what if I’m in dentist truly in all this and it was all fake like I’m an imposter, now it’s just feelings and noticing :/ and I hate he feelings that come with it I’m really scared I am one I feel so alone :( I’m taking therapy but my therapist is not specialized in ocd and I don’t think she understands and I don’t want to bring it up bc I brought up a fear that what if I turn into my stepdad and she said “are you attracted to children?” And I said no but it was just an irrational thought that came after I started realizing the trauma that happened to me as a kid, and idk I’m scared to Start with a therapists here bc what if all this just makes it worse and it turns out I am what I fear all along.? :(
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