I woke up today terrified cause I didn’t feel connected to my body. I looked in the mirror and thought I was watching someone else and that was scary. Feeling depersonalized fueled my intrusive thoughts. Like “what if I’m going crazy”, “what if I have shifted personalities” or “what if I’m bipolar.” The fear of turning crazy also fueled the intrusive thoughts of me acting mentally crazed or like a child. These intrusive thoughts also tainted me into believing that everything I did was something a mentally crazed person would do. Now I have become more hyper aware of how I feel when I do simple things. This also fueled my OCD subtypes like harm/ suicidal because I think that if I’m not connected to my body then I have no control or might do irrational things. This feeling of not being connected to yourself is really scary and I hate the feeling. How do I get connected with myself again.

chey

Date posted: 3y

Buddie, let me tell you. Ive battled with this for over a year now (and thats not to say it lasts that long i just didnt find what worked for me yet). Its hard, its fucking so hard i know. But what you need to do is self regulate. Every say 15 mins, release any tension you may have. The tension keeps us in a trauma response. Keep releasing every so often. When intrusive thoughts come in, and i know this is hard because i still battle with it, you HAVE TO SAY, “maybe, maybe not but im going to keep living my life as if not” EVERY SINGLE TIME. I swear this has been like changing. Im literally like a functioning human being now. I never thought id get here but my ocd is legit 90% better. Im here to talk if you want!

chey

Date posted: 3y

life changing*

BetterDays

Date posted: 3y

Thank you so much! Yes it feels very hard to accept that this may or may not be OCD. I do notice the tension when I get anxious and too worked up my head begins to feel tight. I’m just scared that I’m going to go or already am crazy and not know it. How do you suggest going on about depersonalization. How do I connect with myself again when it feels so scary and I want to nothing?

Elephrank

Date posted: 3y

I have the same fears as you and I've also been getting so much better by saying "maybe, maybe not." I'd recommend searching for videos on depersonalization. There are some good tips to help you feel connected again.

chey

Date posted: 3y

Look up jordan hardgrave on youtube. Hes really knowledgeable! If you even have some extra money, id get his ebook. (Wouldnt join his inner cirlce group tho). But doing too much research can be a compulsion so only do it one day. Learn what you can. But the key, and it sounds like bullshit and impossible. But its what will get you better. Live life as normal. Think, yes im so uncomfortable. But im safe. Its just anxiety, the more i just let it flow the faster it will go away.

Catlove9

Date posted: 23w

I need guidance or to feel like I am not alone

I was doing so much better with my OCD. I thought I finally figured it out. However, the last two weeks have been a nightmare. It’s like I went from 0-100 all over again. And it’s become scarier than it ever has been. Every other thought is either causing me anxiety or turning into an intrusive thought. Any headache or feeling of derealization, and I start to spiral. My thoughts are becoming more gruesome and feeling more real. The intrusive urges are so bad it feels like at any moment I could actually just snap. It feels like I am about to go crazy. Another hard aspect is when I’m getting these intrusive urges it feels like I want to do it or I don’t care if I do it. I don’t feel like myself. I feel like this disgusting monster who is just going to lose it and I want it to be over. Why is this happening when I was finally better? It makes me feel like it’s not OCD and I’m actually this person and I’m just holding my true self back. I’m sick to my stomach.

yaya_zz

Date posted: 22w

OCD flaring up

My ocd has been flaring up lately I’ve noticed some things that I don’t know if it’s ocd or something else whenever I seen someone like drugged or sick or just not “normal” I feel like or get scared that’s gonna end up being me? Does that make sense or then after a few minutes I feel like I’m them I don’t know exactly how to explain it I feel like I’m gonna start acting crazy or like I act weird or like them ? Idk exactly how to explain it and I have such a drop in my stomach thinking of it because it makes me feel insane, I haven’t had such an ocd episode so it’s getting hard again and making me feel insane specially because I don’t know how to explain this that I feel, I feel so scared rn can someone please comment on this?

Holl1

Date posted: 15w

OCD

I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩

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