I have deal with mental illness since I was 9. I never had friends and I recently have to cut out things with almost every member of my family because they are horrible. And this past weeks I been feeling really alone, and I know it's a feeling that pass and that's true. But still there because I really don't have friends.

Maybe you could try switching schools, or even try a fun boarding school. I go to a school model called Acton Academy and when you’re there it is impossible to not make connections. I have been to 3 so far, so maybe there is one near you? I can be here to talk too if you would like that

I have thinking about leaving my country, But idk if that's possible or if will actually help me to improve or it will get worse. However, thank you so much. I really appreciate it. And totally would love to chat with you. :)