my little sister is starting to date this girl and she is sleeping over and i think smth will happen. i usually talk with my mom about my fears around being gay but my sister doesn’t want me to which is completely valid. i love her and i just want her to be happy, but this causes me tremendous anxiety, which then leads to guilt and a fear that i have prejudices or judgements. i NEVER wanna be like that. that to me would be worse than my anxieties being true — me having oppressive ideas. it’s a huge trigger for me though and idk what to do bc now i cant stop having intrusive thoughts. they are worse then they have been in a while and i am now convinced. even though the last couple days i had been somewhat more free from intense anxiety. im so worried also that this is a sign that i have internalized prejudice which causes me to deny my truth…