I feel like a monster. These thoughts feel so real especially since there linked to real events. I feel the responses I get to them isn't ocd which scares me.. the stupid butterflies ( the ones you'd get when someone you like walks in the room.. exicted butterflies) and it makes me sick. I don't wanna be here anymore.

That’s absolutely ocd. Don’t search for the answers and question yourself so much. You’re searching for details that your ocd wants you to search for. And that’s not good. Resist the compulsion of checking for feelings like that. It’ll feel less and less important and you’ll see how silly your ocd is being.

someone I know said "if it's a way someone acted years ago that's fine , but if it's something they did that was a crime...then yes that's (can't remember what they said but it really made me upset )and now I'm really anxious . Like I'm unforgivable...

@🌸 That’s ridiculous! No matter what you did in the past, you’re perfect fine to move on from it. Everyone makes mistakes. Everyone. You’re not unforgivable. You are a wonderful, caring person who just needs a break from your ocd!

I feel that too and I makes me so sick and terrified

I'm sorry you feel it too :(

@🌸 The best thing that you need to remember is that anxiety feels the same way. So we’re experiencing a fear of getting aroused or attraction. It’s not the real thing.