…. Pain loneliness all that’s left

Yeah I don’t know what to do anymore. When i try it gets bad and when i dont it gets bad

@Coul.C If you like you can share with me,it might help. Probably i can relate cause i am going through the same.

@vinay Well im an undergrad i took a year off because my mental was so bad. I was in love and it ended with my ocd spiraling and being solely focused on the person waiting for him to message me back but he ended our communication and thats when my ocd became even worse if it wasn’t bad already to the point i took a break from school. I broke down so many friendships even family relationships to the point that only my cousin was left. He’s staying with us now and i had a big fight and now we aren’t talking either but him and and my brother are. My brother and i dont talk so now i just feel completely left out. To top it off my parents aren’t talking to eachother so this house full of people just feels so lonely to me…. I can’t even tell if some of the friendships/relationships ive ended were for good reasons. I know that if im losing people the problem is probably me but then im also afraid that im just puttig myself down when i was right to cut some people off or stop talking to them. And to make everything better i have this genwtic condition that causes huge bumps under my arms that take up my whole armpit and scream in pain, my father wont call an exterminator even though my rooms feels like it’s going through an infestation and he promised he would, and the only thing that i can do to make me feel betrer (playing games) doesn’t work because our internet doesn’t connect in my room. Lol sometimes i feel cursed

@Coul.C I dont mean to sound crazy. I said alot there i just kept remembering more things to write down

@Coul.C Its alright i would like to hear. Mine story is little bit same as yours. I also had a friend and i used to be in love with her but suddenly she cut herself off from me probably because of my OCD as i had insecurities at that time and i was not familiar then about my condition i have. I tried to talk to her and explain her but she didn't respond and this made my condition even worse and complete questioning myself as person, gaslighting basically in psychological terms. Now this OCD have rooted itself in me and i find no way to escape. But i am trying to manage somehow.

@vinay If it seems like there is nothing to live for it's cause odc has seriously interfered work your life. I'm it saying everything will be okay or that ocd can go away in an instant. Rather life always takes a nosedive and ocd is there to make it worse. Things can get better and iif your not able to find support at home or with freinds either of your were still here to give our bit. Hopefully family and friends can come around to support u y'all like u deserve. Your wonderful people son don't give up wanting things to get better, trust me they eventually will and if things go sour all over again you'll know it can turn better again as wel. Love yalll :) ♥️

@Ambiguous Thanks for your kind words.❤ i am doing well trying to manage things. This aap really gives hope. Love to be a part of this community.

@vinay Your welcome for sure! And same I love having this app for the community. It let me know i wasn't alone after all :) ♥️