I think I'm just might have to accept that I might be gay or bi. I'm 38 and I've never had these feelings and it makes me feel like it's not hocd at all. I still have the want for women but it's not like it used to be. And I just feel like what's the point 😔

@Bimmi When I drink it seems to get better. Why is that?

@Bimmi Any advice? 🙏

@Bimmi I feel as tho I want to be with a man everyday I just can't cope with this. I feel like I'm going to have to go to gay bar and try something with a guy. My life is never going to be the same 😔. I'm never going to be happy

@Bimmi I take paroxetine 30mg. I really appreciate your help by the way

@Bimmi I really just want my life back. I just don't think I could ever going down that route or that lifestyle. But I have men in my head pretty much all the time. And my attraction for women is non existent.

@Bimmi I'm really not sure this is ocd. That's why I'm not getting better 😔

@Bimmi It's been over a year now its been this bad....how can I have had hocd for 17 years. My life is ruined I'm doomed

@Bimmi I was on flouxetine for years. But stopped and changed to paroxetine. I used to suffer with panic attacks are they linked to ocd and health anxiety

@Bimmi I just feel like I'm going to be stuck like this forever. I don't want this in my head....but it feels like I do

@Bimmi I've even say I want to marry a man in my head it's so confusing. I've never had one gay experience in my life. As I was writing that my head was like liar 😔

@Bimmi Your a guy or a girl?

@Bimmi I'm a guy ?....but I don't know if these thoughts are legit ?

@Bimmi It makes me feel so depressed.

@Bimmi So you thought you was gay and was in a relationship with a girl ?

@Bimmi So what do you identify as at the moment?

@Bimmi But is it not ocd....?

@Bimmi I just don't see where my future lies ?

@Bimmi I did have a therapist on here. But I spent so much money I ran out of funds 😪

@Bimmi I think I'm just going to have a agree with these thoughts. It's the only way

@Bimmi I feel like I'm lieing to myself all the time and feels like I know it's not ocd but is it a trick or some sort ?

@Bimmi I broke down today I feel like I should just tell people I might be gay. I can't win its like I'm just going to have to go out and try something with a man or go to a gay area or something 😔

@Bimmi I'm sorry to go on. I'm lost its like my mind is saying the only way to be happy is to be with a man. And I keep thinking how people would be shocked if I tell them 😔

@Bimmi It's just so confusing and I can't be myself around my children because I have this in my head. I keep thinking maybe I could be with a man. And I say bizarre things in my head like my referring to my boyfriend when I've never even had one ?. I would do anything for peace in my mind

@Bimmi One minute I feel totally hopeless and just gay. And then I see a hot girl and I think how cam I give them up. But I find looking at pictures of women on tinder I can't really feel a thing sometimes 😕

@Bimmi Hey.....how are ?

@Bimmi Struggling....but better than the other day. Why do I think I look gay? All the time 😔

@Bimmi Did you see me comment below

@Bimmi Are you there ?

@Bimmi Did you see my comments above ?

@Bimmi It was about false attraction to genitals?. I'm just so unsure on everything. I never imagined I would feel like this in my life

@Bimmi I just don't know who I am......its horrible 😔

@Bimmi I just want to feel about women like I did.....but that seems so far away now 😔

@Bimmi Thankyou. I'm trying to accept the possibility that I might be bi or whatever I kind of know these thoughts are intrusive but I am not sure. But I'm just not sure of anything

@Bimmi I wish I could give you advice. But I so stuck aswel. I wish I knew if this was hocd but I don't 😔

@Bimmi I'm hoping too🙏

@Bimmi I'm struggling to feel anything for women 😪......

@Bimmi Why is it different when I look at women in pictures I don't feel much at all. But when in the flesh I feel more. But I feel as tho I'm pushing it more to like them like I used to ?

@Bimmi I think I'm kind of feeling a little bit better in myself. It's the feelings I have that trouble as if I want to find a man and thinking about them more than women. Don't know if its because I'm hyper focused on this ?.

@Bimmi Feeling crap again the thinking of men is driving me nuts 😔