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Yeah but it all started at 22 and just out of the blue one night. And it's been kind of on and off. I've had periods where I've not thought about it at all. But avoided certain programs. But I've never had an attraction to men's genitals. I noticed a guys penis when I was watching porn and that was it π
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@Bimmi When I drink it seems to get better. Why is that?
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Thing is I've not had a lots of themes. I think I had health anxiety and used to suffer with panic attacks and sometimes still do
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@Bimmi Any advice? π
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@Bimmi I feel as tho I want to be with a man everyday I just can't cope with this. I feel like I'm going to have to go to gay bar and try something with a guy. My life is never going to be the same π. I'm never going to be happy
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@Bimmi I take paroxetine 30mg. I really appreciate your help by the way
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@Bimmi I really just want my life back. I just don't think I could ever going down that route or that lifestyle. But I have men in my head pretty much all the time. And my attraction for women is non existent.
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@Bimmi I'm really not sure this is ocd. That's why I'm not getting better π
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@Bimmi It's been over a year now its been this bad....how can I have had hocd for 17 years. My life is ruined I'm doomed
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@Bimmi I was on flouxetine for years. But stopped and changed to paroxetine. I used to suffer with panic attacks are they linked to ocd and health anxiety
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@Bimmi I just feel like I'm going to be stuck like this forever. I don't want this in my head....but it feels like I do
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@Bimmi I've even say I want to marry a man in my head it's so confusing. I've never had one gay experience in my life. As I was writing that my head was like liar π
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@Bimmi Your a guy or a girl?
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@Bimmi I'm a guy ?....but I don't know if these thoughts are legit ?
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@Bimmi It makes me feel so depressed.
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@Bimmi So you thought you was gay and was in a relationship with a girl ?
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@Bimmi So what do you identify as at the moment?
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@Bimmi But is it not ocd....?
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@Bimmi I just don't see where my future lies ?
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@Bimmi I did have a therapist on here. But I spent so much money I ran out of funds πͺ
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@Bimmi I think I'm just going to have a agree with these thoughts. It's the only way
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@Bimmi I feel like I'm lieing to myself all the time and feels like I know it's not ocd but is it a trick or some sort ?
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@Bimmi I broke down today I feel like I should just tell people I might be gay. I can't win its like I'm just going to have to go out and try something with a man or go to a gay area or something π
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@Bimmi I'm sorry to go on. I'm lost its like my mind is saying the only way to be happy is to be with a man. And I keep thinking how people would be shocked if I tell them π
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@Bimmi It's just so confusing and I can't be myself around my children because I have this in my head. I keep thinking maybe I could be with a man. And I say bizarre things in my head like my referring to my boyfriend when I've never even had one ?. I would do anything for peace in my mind
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@Bimmi One minute I feel totally hopeless and just gay. And then I see a hot girl and I think how cam I give them up. But I find looking at pictures of women on tinder I can't really feel a thing sometimes π
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@Bimmi Hey.....how are ?
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@Bimmi Struggling....but better than the other day. Why do I think I look gay? All the time π
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@Bimmi Did you see me comment below
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@Bimmi Are you there ?
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@Bimmi Did you see my comments above ?
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@Bimmi It was about false attraction to genitals?. I'm just so unsure on everything. I never imagined I would feel like this in my life
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@Bimmi I just don't know who I am......its horrible π
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@Bimmi I just want to feel about women like I did.....but that seems so far away now π
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@Bimmi Thankyou. I'm trying to accept the possibility that I might be bi or whatever I kind of know these thoughts are intrusive but I am not sure. But I'm just not sure of anything
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@Bimmi I wish I could give you advice. But I so stuck aswel. I wish I knew if this was hocd but I don't π
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@Bimmi I'm hoping tooπ
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@Bimmi I'm struggling to feel anything for women πͺ......
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@Bimmi Why is it different when I look at women in pictures I don't feel much at all. But when in the flesh I feel more. But I feel as tho I'm pushing it more to like them like I used to ?
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@Bimmi I think I'm kind of feeling a little bit better in myself. It's the feelings I have that trouble as if I want to find a man and thinking about them more than women. Don't know if its because I'm hyper focused on this ?.
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@Bimmi Feeling crap again the thinking of men is driving me nuts π
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I had a bad rumination spiral yesterday and went to bed hoping Iβd start over in the morning. I was wrong. I had dreams about liking women and not being attracted to men anymore and my entire body has been in a state of anxiety since. I genuinely feel like Iβm gay and just need to accept it. I have this urge to accept it. Maybe if I do Iβll get some sort of relief because this feeling is awful. I feel like my brain is telling me that Iβll get relief if I just accept it and come out. The intrusive thoughts donβt even seem to be around sexual images anymore, just to come out.
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Iβve had hocd for around 11 months now. Itβs gotten to the point where Iβm just convinced that I am bi. I still like boys like I always have, but I feel like I like girls too. I have no anxiety either or active thoughts. Itβs just kinda there like yep Iβm bi and ok with it. Anyone else? Just curious.
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I really need help understanding what Iβm going through. For a long time now, Iβve been struggling with thoughts and feelings about women that confuse and scare me. Sometimes I feel this strange emotional or mental βpullβ toward certain women β itβs not exactly sexual, and not clearly romantic either, but it feels like something, and it triggers deep anxiety. When I see a beautiful woman or a WLW (woman-loving-woman) couple, I feel something that I canβt explain β sometimes I think itβs just admiration or aesthetic appreciation, but OCD keeps telling me: βYou felt something, so you must be gay,β or βYouβre hiding something.β I get stuck in endless loops, trying to analyze these moments and label them. Even when I feel physical or emotional reactions, they donβt feel natural or aligned with who I am. They feel like a reaction to the idea of women, not real attraction. I try to be honest with myself β I even told a friend I might be bisexual at some point, just to test if that felt more comfortable. But it didnβt. It made things worse, and I felt like I lost touch with who I am. I donβt want to lie to myself or live in denial, but Iβm exhausted. It feels like Iβm being mentally forced to feel something that isnβt mine. Iβm 14, and I understand that things might still be developing, but I canβt help feeling like Iβve always been drawn to men, and never naturally wanted women that way. Still, I keep doubting everything. Is this real attraction or OCD feeding false feelings and thoughts? Can OCD create emotional or mental sensations that feel like desire? Iβm so scared that Iβll lose myself, or find out something I never wanted. I just want peace and to feel like myself again.
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