I was a weird child and i did some weird sexual things when i was younger (the worst part was around 6 or 7 but i also had some weird behaviors up until i was 12) and i truly feel like a monster right now and it all makes me feel like a pedophile because, even though my sister is only a year younger, she was always with me, we got a baby brother when we were 12 and 11, that’s when my ocd started. I think i might have done something to him but I don’t remember clearly

you were a child, its ok to feel that way but trust me, youre not alone

I think you need to try not to look back children do weird things like that a lot more than you think because they don’t know any better yet. They just see things on tv and try things because they are curious not because they are bad people. If you can’t remember doing something it probably didn’t happen and it’s your ocd trying to create something out of the guilt you feel about what happened in your past.

No amount of ruminating / looking back is going to calm your OCD. Trust me, I was in your position while struggling with the harm OCD theme as well. As an exposure you could purposefully bring up the thoughts & work on breaking down the irrational beliefs. Just because you may have done something in the past that you disagree with, doesn't mean that you are a terrible person / cannot rest. This will help to bring down that fear so that you no longer need to compulsively ruminate! You got this!!!

I had the same issue with an old childhood friends little sister like did i make uncomfortable when she was sitting on my lap ? Came outta nowhere the other day. I was like shd I reach out and ask? But now I realize thats a compulsion and shouldn’t

All I remember is getting the thoughts i still have to this day and feeling like a monster

Just the thought that i would do such a thing disgusts me and I’m really scared, i would never do anything like that now, but this haunts me. Am I guilty?😭😭