I know exactly how you feel.
It’s so difficult because it feels like the more you push it away the worse it gets. I wish I could tell myself it’s not real that’s not me but there is this other voice saying well maybe it is and maybe you’re just going to lose it.
It's a terrifying thing. I was just recently able to put a name to what I've been suffering with for about a year. We are strong and we will get through this and be on the better side soon.
Thank you and that’s all we can hope for.