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I know exactly how you feel.
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It’s so difficult because it feels like the more you push it away the worse it gets. I wish I could tell myself it’s not real that’s not me but there is this other voice saying well maybe it is and maybe you’re just going to lose it.
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It's a terrifying thing. I was just recently able to put a name to what I've been suffering with for about a year. We are strong and we will get through this and be on the better side soon.
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Thank you and that’s all we can hope for.
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