My stomach hurts tonight and my mind is racing. Thoughts of hurting those I love are the worst I could have. I want to be able to just get rid of it because it breaks my heart. Sometimes it feels like it’s best to be on my own so I can never act on it.

I know exactly how you feel.

It’s so difficult because it feels like the more you push it away the worse it gets. I wish I could tell myself it’s not real that’s not me but there is this other voice saying well maybe it is and maybe you’re just going to lose it.

It's a terrifying thing. I was just recently able to put a name to what I've been suffering with for about a year. We are strong and we will get through this and be on the better side soon.