Guys do you ever feel like you’re too far gone, too deep into this particular fear? I know for a fact that I have been doing so much better but then… I still feel like there is this invisible line I must not cross, but I already have. Because sometimes I am so fed up with everything I just let it go and, for that moment, I‘m not even afraid anymore. I‘m agreeing with the thoughts or thinking ‚okay, whatever.‘ and I know that’s GOOD but aaaaaahhhh not going after the what if what if what if is the hardest thing I have ever done and it’s so so freaking scary

I‘ll be chilling with my friends having fun or whatever and then I get this sinking feeling like ‚you have been obsessed with this for over a year. Something is deeply deeply wrong with you. You can’t hide any longer.‘ and it makes me so depressed

I feel like that sometimes.... Like my HOCD. I've had it for around eight or nine years and I feel so bad cause I've been obsessing over it for so long and picked up numerous other subtypes along the way to make it worse 😞

Just remeber that you are always here and even though soemtimes it feels like you’ve gone too far try and remeber that is rly is just your ocd and that’s okay! You are still here and you’ll get through this