Tw soocd I am spiraling again. Back to watching videos „how to know if you’re gay“, checking attraction, ruminating. I feel like I have known all along and just don’t want to admit the truth. Like I am lying to myself and everyone. I feel like I have to watch these videos but also I don’t want to because I am so so scared of hearing points that resonate with me and then being unable to say I am not gay.

It’s truly awful isn’t it? Give yourself a break today, put your phone down and sit with the anxiety, when you feel your brain reeling back and going over things, try to pull yourself to the present and say ‘hey, I’m not going to do that, I’m not going to figure this out right now and that’s ok’

This is great advice, I will try that . (Sometimes I forget it’s okay not to think about the thoughts 24/7) Thank you so much!

@johm It’s not a problem at all! I know how hard it is, I hope you can enjoy the rest of your day a little bit more, be easy on yourself :)

This is terrible. :/ the worst is when u relate to something and you’re like “well that’s proof I must be gay” like I am just spiraling lately