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I am so sorry for what you are going through, OCD is a monster! I mentioned this is an earlier post, but the reason why these thoughts bother you so much is because it is so far from your character. If you really did believe these thoughts you wouldn't care and find yourself relating to it. Just know that your intrusive thoughts say nothing about who you are as a person. OCD cannot make you do anything you don't want to do. I know our mind tries to trick us, but we have to take our mind back from OCD. The only way to combat OCD is to not feed into the thoughts. It's going to be hard, but just the simple fact that we deal with something as scary as OCD every day means we are stronger than we let ourselves believe and can overcome it. There is no cure for OCD because intrusive thoughts happen to everyone, they just brush it off and people with OCD think it has something to do with their character. I have actually heard a friend of mine who doesn't have OCD describe having an intrusive thought. The difference is they acknowledge the thought as weird, brush it off, and don't think about it again. Our intrusive thoughts keep coming back because we obsess over them. Then we try compulsions to make them go away. Avoidance is a compulsion. The only way to fight this monster is to face it head on. You are not your thoughts. It's your OCD not you. I believe in you and I know you've got this! Go out there and be great!
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My mother too has the same issue. So my parents fight a lot over it. I don't want such a life for myself. I'll try not to do compulsions and face my obsessions with a calm mind that they are part of everyone's life and they too will pass. Thank you so much mak2022. Can we connect?
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There is nothing I can do. I don't know how to get rid of it.
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@Dialup I know what makes me behave abnormally. Relationships. It means I can't get married? When I get into them..I start repeating one thing again and again. Those are my compulsions. It is not a very big thing but the impact it causes is tremendous which I mentioned above. I repeat things so many times that the person leaves me.
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Yeah of course! Do you have instagram
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Iāve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didnāt realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didnāt. Hereās where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew š«) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when Iām not looking so I didnāt know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldnāt get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didnāt have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like itās getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst itās been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I canāt handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times Iām getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I canāt deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. Iām so saddened by this. Itās like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I canāt stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvementsā¦
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Hi everyone, I'm in a bit of a difficult situation and I wanted to ask for some advice. I recently finished my studies and I am living from my savings while I look for a job. However this process has turned out to be a lot more difficult and tedious than I expected. I suspect I have OCD as I relate to a lot of the experiences described here, in particular those corresponding to pure OCD. I have continuous intrusive thoughts about how what I'm currently doing is not enough, I constantly need to reassured that what I'm doing is right, with some magical thinking and concerns about my relationship sprinkled in. These intrusive thoughts have made it very difficult to make any significant progress in looking for something. Added to this I'm not even sure I have OCD as I don't have the money to afford therapy right now (my mind keeps telling me that it's silly to write this message because there's no way I have OCD). I live in Switzerland so as far as I understand my insurance won't cover sessions with NOCD. In conclusion I'm a bit stuck, therapy would help with finding a job but I need a job to get therapy. If any of you have had any similar experience and have some piece of advice it would be very welcome.
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I had OCD earlier in life, but it came and gone. For the last 4.5 it's been one thing after another, though. Today I felt especially grossed out by my POCD and I feellike I'm losing last hope that I had. I hate to sound awfully dramatic, but I want to clarify things a little bit and ask for advice. So I've been taking antidepressants up until some point, had a break and then started taking them again. In the beginning of this month, I finally finished that second course. This time it lasted 1.5 years. It's important to note that for the last half year I was pretty proactive in finding solutions to my ocd, finding new methods and reading articles. It probably did help, but mostly in short-term. Today I felt like my symptoms (it's mainly groinal response) were scaringly prominent and it made me really depressed. Do I have to start all over? It never got good enough in the first place, so I'm not even sure if it's possible to cure. I admit I might've not been pushing myself enough to do the scariest possible things, but that doesn't mean I didn't do ERP. Now, to the venting part. I'm not sure if anything really helped: if I'm relaxed it's probably just a matter of good mood. I'm anxious when going outside. I feel like I don't deserve friends because of my "dirty" secret -- I feel incredibly ashamed for groinal sensations. There were times when I'm sure it wasn't a phantom feeling, but a real one I caused. But I can't undo anything, so it has to stay with me. My family really loves me, so of course killing myself was never an option. But I still hate myself. I'm too tired to keep on fighting with OCD and bearing the burden of those very shameful events is too hard. What do I do? Maybe I'm just not adapted to living without antidepressants, so I'm being too emotional and all I should do is continue doing ERP. But my point is that I'm too exhausted. Thank you for reading. I see many here have a similar problem, I hope you're staying strong. I'd love to help you all, but I'm afraid that right now I'm not suit for giving out good life advice
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