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I think I know the feeling you’re talking about and I always assumed it’s was side effects of having chronic anxiety. I obsess about my future too but I’m trying to work on just moving forward and not letting this hold me back.

I feel you. The feeling of not being good enough is my main theme behind all my obsessions/compulsions. It effects me in everything I do, from being out in social places, school, and in my past relationship. So many people have told me how great of a person I am, but my OCD would never allow me to believe it. I sufffer from pure OCD, Perfectionism OCD and ROCD. I have just begun ERP and can see the opportunity every exposure brings to reaching my true potential. Another tool that I find helps is being grateful for who I am. I’m not gonna lie, I’ve been in a really dark place for the past several months and now because of my OCD but I am telling myself now on the bad days that I will get through this. I know it won’t be a quick fix but I believe being persistent with ERP and being self-compassionate will make me the man I am supposed to be. I hope this helps and we’re in this together

Amen Lentzy, I'm feeling the exact words you wrote and very similar thought processes. Reading that hit me on a real level like deep. I know how that feels. Thanks for sharing.