When i think so much and then say all this thinking means something cause it feels so real do i even try to fight with it saying no?!? Its not or cross questioning sometimes i just don’t i like am okay with it kinda accept it and if i do that what does that mean cause if I don’t believe in it why would I accept it and not fight it and have a problem. They feel too real to fight sometimes its like lying to oneself but if i say or feel that does that mean I believe in what i am denying?!? What does that mean then?!? My brain is so foggy and constantly confused idk what to think and what not…

I agree but the problem is that these feel so real the thoughts and I understand whatever you said but my brain would still question it and be like oh is that all ? Is that true?! What if its not?!? I read somewhere soocd is projected differently for different people and if I don’t relate to someone’s symptoms i go like oh she or he has that but I don’t so do i not have it at all and i am trying to just run away its like questioning your existence

@Bimmi I guess you’re right… just the uncertainty scares you cause that means it can or it cannot and the can part eats you but when doesn’t you think why it does not its a loop:(

@Bimmi Its like living a hallucination i never thought this would happen to me and I believe that whatever happens will make us stronger but when the thoughts come in and feel so real and then i question the fact that i write they feel so real everytime is it because i want to reassure myself someway i forget how to hold on..

@Bimmi Same i have had themes as well and i have had then bad sometimes or some days i am so much more calmer and I barely pay attention and then suddenly it comes back stronger than ever which is the hardest to deal with