When i think so much and then say all this thinking means something cause it feels so real do i even try to fight with it saying no?!? Its not or cross questioning sometimes i just don’t i like am okay with it kinda accept it and if i do that what does that mean cause if I don’t believe in it why would I accept it and not fight it and have a problem. They feel too real to fight sometimes its like lying to oneself but if i say or feel that does that mean I believe in what i am denying?!? What does that mean then?!? My brain is so foggy and constantly confused idk what to think and what not…

Sexual Orientation OCD

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Date posted: 3y

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Brave through

Date posted: 3y

I agree but the problem is that these feel so real the thoughts and I understand whatever you said but my brain would still question it and be like oh is that all ? Is that true?! What if its not?!? I read somewhere soocd is projected differently for different people and if I don’t relate to someone’s symptoms i go like oh she or he has that but I don’t so do i not have it at all and i am trying to just run away its like questioning your existence

Brave through

Date posted: 3y

@Bimmi I guess you’re right… just the uncertainty scares you cause that means it can or it cannot and the can part eats you but when doesn’t you think why it does not its a loop:(

Brave through

Date posted: 3y

@Bimmi Its like living a hallucination i never thought this would happen to me and I believe that whatever happens will make us stronger but when the thoughts come in and feel so real and then i question the fact that i write they feel so real everytime is it because i want to reassure myself someway i forget how to hold on..

Brave through

Date posted: 3y

@Bimmi Same i have had themes as well and i have had then bad sometimes or some days i am so much more calmer and I barely pay attention and then suddenly it comes back stronger than ever which is the hardest to deal with

Holl1

Date posted: 19w

Doubts

Usually my thoughts go from statements, which I fight all the time, to doubts like “do I” or “i don’t know” but I don’t fight this. I’m not sure if this is progress or it’s the truth. Anyone else feel like this?

Anonymous

Date posted: 18w

Anyone else struggle with “maybe, maybe not”?

I know the solution is to always say “yeah that could be true, but I am choosing to live my life anyway.” However, I feel like my biggest issue is my brain always assuming that it is immediately true when I do that. Like if I say “maybe I’m attracted to teenagers, it’s possible,” then my brain INSTANTLY starts rationalizing that thought and defending it and being like “oh okay so you think this now and it makes sense because xyz, and now that’s who you are and your real desire is now and always will be teenagers.” I feel really alone in this area of feeling like my brain “accepting the thoughts” means my brain immediately accepts them as true. I obviously don’t want to think they’re true but I feel so stuck now.

Anonymous

Date posted: 14w

The things my brain convinces me of

The things my brain convinces me of are so horrible idk how im going to get through this this time. I feel like I tell my self all the obsessions this episode u don’t even know or you definitely didn’t do but then I just start ruminating on simply the idea of them existing for me to worry abt being enough to keep me in the episode and I can’t even remember them all which doesn’t make sense how I would just forget but ocd makes it make sense yk. Sometimes they feel so real and there is nothing I can do to know and I just want to be happy so bad ik my core values and how I actually feel but it’s just a dark lonely terrifying cloud raining on me all day and night long.

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