ac (she/her)
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juni ✨juni ✨
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I’m Catholic, but I’m not super religious. However, whenever I doubt God, I get super anxious and think something bad will happen if I question his existence.
juni ✨juni ✨
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Or if I want to explore different religions or anything, I tell myself I can’t because God will be so mad and that is so unholy to be interested in other religions or spirituality.
ac (she/her)ac (she/her)
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@LUNA ✨ YES YES YES. I’m with you. Since OCD is quite literally the “doubting” disorder, I have the urge to “try out” other religions in hopes that it will make me more “certain” in my Christianity, but I know trying to do other to gain certainty is contradictory to OCD recovery. Idk what to do fr. And then if I try to approach my doubt in God’s existence with “maybe” “maybe not,” as I would other OCD themes, I feel like I’m going to be condemned for that?
juni ✨juni ✨
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@ac_adams (she/her) It’s a very tough situation because it literally feels like an angel and devil on our shoulder. It sounds like you have strong faith and God loves you NO MATTER WHAT. Everyone questions God, it’s not a strange or bizarre thought. Just like you said, OCD is doubt and it will doubt anything that you’re passionate about, love or believe.
ac (she/her)ac (she/her)
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@LUNA ✨ Thank you so so much for that support <3
Junior96!Junior96!
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Just want to share some encouragement. Christ died and rose for us ! He is the only way , truth and life . He cleansed us so that we can be with God . Listen to testimonies , worship music , read Matthew , Mark , Luke , and John . He loves you ! He knows and wants you ! Don’t let the enemy deceive you . You are loved and God loves you even where you are in life right now . It’s what I was told . Stay strong every one and God bless !
ac (she/her)ac (she/her)
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Thank you!! <3
Junior96!Junior96!
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Of course and anytime ! Have you dealt with blasphemous thoughts ? It’s what I deal with?
ac (she/her)ac (she/her)
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Yes, I have!
Junior96!Junior96!
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Any advice ? I inform many that I have thoughts and then now I turn everything and make it blasphemous. I’ve been dealing with this for a year . So afraid that God would leave me . Convinced that I’m doing this on purpose . I try to stop but then I drive myself into unhealthy compulsions such as : rebuking each thought that literally comes to my mind every 15secs .
ac (she/her)ac (she/her)
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I empathize with the idea of “rebuking thoughts.” I used to feel the need to constantly ask for forgiveness all day everyday whenever I sinned, but then I found that was actually such a trap and held me back from furthering my relationship with God because it was a compulsion. I’m with you. Always remember that your thoughts do not equal fact. <3
Junior96!Junior96!
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@ac_adams (she/her) Thanks for empathizing . I appreciate that . The scariest thing to me is to just let the thought stay . I say this because it’s not a thought that is just coming out of nowhere , it’s me coming up with things in my head and making it blasphemous . It’s like my brain is in blasphemous mode . It’s just everything is blasphemous. Is that even a thought anymore ? I’m not sure , so I rebuke the thoughts just in case I am doing it on purpose . My mind tells me that God will have mercy and forgiveness over me
ac (she/her)ac (she/her)
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@Junior96! I know that is so difficult. I’m so sorry. Don’t forget to show yourself grace & self-compassion.
Junior96!Junior96!
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@ac_adams (she/her) So you went through the same thing ?
ac (she/her)ac (she/her)
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@Junior96! I cant confirm that it was the same thing exactly, but I do believe I’ve experienced something similar. The hyper-fixation on the guilt makes it all worse. I know that can feel uncontrollable. I encourage giving yourself freedom not to try and solve the thoughts. It doesn’t make you irresponsible or a bad person to let them be there. I believe that the less you ruminate over the guilt, the easier it will be to accept the discomfort and not try to resolve it.
Junior96!Junior96!
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@ac_adams (she/her) You’re right . Last thing . So , you don’t believe God would stop forgiving me or maybe I’ll be a blasphemer like the Pharisees because of the thoughts that I’m coming up with ?
ac (she/her)ac (she/her)
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@Junior96! I wish I knew the answer. I’m sorry that I don’t. Uncertainty is hard to accept, am I right?
Junior96!Junior96!
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@ac_adams (she/her) I understand. Thank you
HopeforhappyHopeforhappy
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@Junior96! Why are you sending me messages and blocking me at the same time constantly what did I say or do to you that was so bad please don’t do nasty things thanks
HopeforhappyHopeforhappy
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@Junior96! You keep trying to message me
Junior96!Junior96!
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@Hopeforhappy I didn’t block you . It’s funny because the other day I asked someone the same thing . It said that I was blocked . Maybe the app is glitching or something . I don’t even know you nor would I be rude to you . I literally had the same issue with someone else a couple of days ago . It says that I was blocked and stuff like that . That’s so weird
Junior96!Junior96!
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@Hopeforhappy I’m sorry that it’s showing that I’m trying to message you but I’m not . I don’t even know who you are . I apologize again
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@Junior96! IM LITERALLY EXPERIENCING THE SAME THING!!! plz tell me it's ocd nd not my own self. It's taking my faith away from me. I feel like I'm thinking the thoughts or deliberately forming blasphemous thoughts in my head. Idk how to get rid of this.
HopeforhappyHopeforhappy
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Ok I thought so sorry I know I didn’t say anything wrong that people would be upset
HopeforhappyHopeforhappy
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You post comes in many times in the last hour to me but it says blocked
Junior96!Junior96!
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Yeah I don’t know what’s going on . I literally haven’t texted you and no offense but I don’t even know you . Just disregard that . I apologize.
HopeforhappyHopeforhappy
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Now it’s working now that you replied
HopeforhappyHopeforhappy
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It’s happening with several people too
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