I don’t want to be gay, but I feel like I am, I just want to feel straight and be straight but I feel like I’m gay and fighting it, and I don’t even know if this is ocd, I just want this to stop, I’m not homophobic in anyway I just don’t want to be gay and the thought that I might be gay really stresses me out

I felt 100% the same way. My ocd had me completely convinced I was totally in denial and it’s gotten better but not something I am rid of. Now I’m clinging to the wanting to be what I am which gave me enough confidence to relax and try to just allow the thoughts even though it felt like it might make me into something I don’t want to be. It’s the absolute pits I’m sorry I hope you get the help you need and feel better soon. I’m working on that for myself