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Haven’t seen many POCD ppl on here. I haven’t had this particular trigger. But I just want to say hi. And thanks for sharing and being vulnerable. OCD can be such a monster.
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Yeah it seems like there was more but I don’t see as many now. I tend to post a lot because pocd is my main theme and it quite literally scared me to death and I’m terrified of it
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I was about your age when I first experienced it and now I have a kid (15 yrs later!) and it got triggered bigtime this year. It’s brutal and so stigmatizing. Thanks for being brave and sharing your story.
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I’ve had it for about 2 or 3 years now and I would think it would get easier but I was wrong. It progressed and got more terrifying. It’s so sad how OCD is so stigmatized, especially this theme. But if my story helps someone feel less alone, then I know that that’s the best thing I can do. I actually aspire to be a therapist one day and learn as much as I can about OCD or mental health in general to help people feel less alone in this heavy world
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I am amazed it’s taken so long for me to get diagnosed. But stories are extremely powerful. There’s a Netflix show about ocd that I haven’t seen yet but I’m sure is helping raise awareness (called Pure). And I’m a doctor!! So I’m excited to help others now that I have more on-site into this for myself. The world definitely needs more informed therapists. Good for you.
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I agree. I haven’t heard of it or seen it but I will definitely have to check it out. Thank you
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Yeah, but the actress herself wasn’t 17. It’s like when they hire 25 year olds to play a 15 year old. You have nothing to worry about, just keep watching the movie, let the thoughts pass
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I know the actress wasn’t but the thought of her playing someone younger just feels weird to me. I know it may not be a big deal or whatever but to ocd it doesn’t care. It will still do anything to worry me about what if I’m doing something wrong. Just like when I watched The Vampire Diaries or Riverdale, I thought a couple guys in the shows were really cute but they played younger characters which just makes me feel wrong. I don’t know hopefully that makes sense. Ocd just sucks
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@Just Breathe ❤️ Yeah, I definitely get this, I freak out for the same, like when I thought Emma stone looked cute in the amazing Spider-Man where her character is 17, but Emma Stone herself was 24. It’s really stressful. OCD is horrible and I absolutely hate living in constant fear and anxiety, but we can’t give the power to OCD, the more we resist the stronger it’ll get, including the guilt and fear. Like I just watched porn rn and feel incredibly guilty and scared that it was illegal, even though it most definitely was not, OCD is just a jerk.
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@OCDHaver Yeah I totally get it. Even with the porn thing. Haven’t seen it in a long time because it’s just not good to get into anyways but it worries me what if I did something wrong or what if they were younger and I didn’t realize it. Just to put it out there I would NEVER intentionally look that stuff up. It’s just not me at all. Just the thought of coming across it just scares me to death
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@Just Breathe ❤️ Yeah, I get scared too, I actually did see something really gross on YouTube and was triggered really badly, but I went back to report it. I can’t believe YouTube would allow that to stay up
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@OCDHaver Yeah it’s sad and scary. But it sounds like you did the right thing
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Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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Ive dealt with pocd for a very long time now and it gets more real as time goes on. I was watching a movie and I’ve read the books so I knew there was a kiss scene coming up.The actors and their characters are children but I was basically looking forward to the scene. Then as they were kissing, it looked kind of weird and mechanical because again the actor was technically still a child. And I let myself indulge and enjoy it, of how someone young was doing something sexual and adult like. Idk I feel like a fuckikg creep but I don’t WANT this. There was nothing intrusive about this, it’s just something creepy that I’ve done. I keep ruminating about it but still. I don’t identify myself by this mistake but it still sucks. My mind then went to children that I know, one girl and one boy, and them separately doing sexual things for the first time and navigating that and it feels like I like it but I don’t. It’s not as real as the movie scene because the fact I enjoyed the scene WAS real but it’s still stressing me out.
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TW: porn mentioned When I was younger around 18-19 or maybe younger, I stumbled across some porn labeled as 'teen'. I don't remember if I watched it or get scared away by 'teen', but I then searched for porn something like '18-teen years old', I wanted to make sure it was legal. Now I'm spiraling that I did it because I wanted to see someone younger. Or what my intentions could possibly be? It happened for once or I cannot remembered searching something similar ever again. I've always preferred bigger more masculine men, but why I did that then? I had active porn addiction since I was 9 or I'm afraid younger, watched some things that I regret watching... And now I'm 23 and don't watch it all for like 3 years, because I found out that it was unethical. When I was little I preferred BDSM porn and everyone was very mature and I did not watched anything questionable with real people, but some weird fictional stuff, but didn't like it. Now that I remember this I'm very confused and don't know how to continue living with that. I'm just done...
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