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Haven’t seen many POCD ppl on here. I haven’t had this particular trigger. But I just want to say hi. And thanks for sharing and being vulnerable. OCD can be such a monster.
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Yeah it seems like there was more but I don’t see as many now. I tend to post a lot because pocd is my main theme and it quite literally scared me to death and I’m terrified of it
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I was about your age when I first experienced it and now I have a kid (15 yrs later!) and it got triggered bigtime this year. It’s brutal and so stigmatizing. Thanks for being brave and sharing your story.
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I’ve had it for about 2 or 3 years now and I would think it would get easier but I was wrong. It progressed and got more terrifying. It’s so sad how OCD is so stigmatized, especially this theme. But if my story helps someone feel less alone, then I know that that’s the best thing I can do. I actually aspire to be a therapist one day and learn as much as I can about OCD or mental health in general to help people feel less alone in this heavy world
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I am amazed it’s taken so long for me to get diagnosed. But stories are extremely powerful. There’s a Netflix show about ocd that I haven’t seen yet but I’m sure is helping raise awareness (called Pure). And I’m a doctor!! So I’m excited to help others now that I have more on-site into this for myself. The world definitely needs more informed therapists. Good for you.
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I agree. I haven’t heard of it or seen it but I will definitely have to check it out. Thank you
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Yeah, but the actress herself wasn’t 17. It’s like when they hire 25 year olds to play a 15 year old. You have nothing to worry about, just keep watching the movie, let the thoughts pass
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I know the actress wasn’t but the thought of her playing someone younger just feels weird to me. I know it may not be a big deal or whatever but to ocd it doesn’t care. It will still do anything to worry me about what if I’m doing something wrong. Just like when I watched The Vampire Diaries or Riverdale, I thought a couple guys in the shows were really cute but they played younger characters which just makes me feel wrong. I don’t know hopefully that makes sense. Ocd just sucks
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@Just Breathe ❤️ Yeah, I definitely get this, I freak out for the same, like when I thought Emma stone looked cute in the amazing Spider-Man where her character is 17, but Emma Stone herself was 24. It’s really stressful. OCD is horrible and I absolutely hate living in constant fear and anxiety, but we can’t give the power to OCD, the more we resist the stronger it’ll get, including the guilt and fear. Like I just watched porn rn and feel incredibly guilty and scared that it was illegal, even though it most definitely was not, OCD is just a jerk.
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@OCDHaver Yeah I totally get it. Even with the porn thing. Haven’t seen it in a long time because it’s just not good to get into anyways but it worries me what if I did something wrong or what if they were younger and I didn’t realize it. Just to put it out there I would NEVER intentionally look that stuff up. It’s just not me at all. Just the thought of coming across it just scares me to death
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@Just Breathe ❤️ Yeah, I get scared too, I actually did see something really gross on YouTube and was triggered really badly, but I went back to report it. I can’t believe YouTube would allow that to stay up
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@OCDHaver Yeah it’s sad and scary. But it sounds like you did the right thing
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I’ve been dealing with a lot of anxiety and uncertainty I think I’m really struggling right now. I was in my alone time (self pleasure) and obviously like whenever you’re doing your thing you might have fantasies or whatever and that’s what came into my mind in the moment and then all of a sudden I get a flashback from a scene from pretty little liars came into my mind where Emily kisses Ali on the neck. In pilot actor who played Allison was 12 years old, which the pilot was the first episode I believe but in the rest of the season of season one she was 13 and that flashback was in season one as well after the pilot and I’m really worried that I might have self pleasure to myself to that scene even though I knew all this time that she was 13 in that scene and I don’t feel comfortable because I’m 16 and even though like it’s not too much of an age gap it’s still polished me and I’m scared to death right now, but I didn’t panic immediately because I think I somewhat kinda knew in the moment that I probably didn’t do anything bad but I am not 100% sure and then the more I thought about it, I started to panic even more and now I’m panicking even more now and I feel like a really big pedo, and I keep searching and googling and trying to check for her age to see how old she was in that scene and I’m pretty sure she was 13 but I promise I wasn’t intentionally thinking oh yeah I’m gonna self pressure myself to this scene regardlessof her age. No, I’m just afraid I probably did without even like realizing or registering the thought in my mind, but then at the same time I kind of feel like maybe I was just coexisting with a thought and now I’m scared I’m really scared guys.
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Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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Ive dealt with pocd for a very long time now and it gets more real as time goes on. I was watching a movie and I’ve read the books so I knew there was a kiss scene coming up.The actors and their characters are children but I was basically looking forward to the scene. Then as they were kissing, it looked kind of weird and mechanical because again the actor was technically still a child. And I let myself indulge and enjoy it, of how someone young was doing something sexual and adult like. Idk I feel like a fuckikg creep but I don’t WANT this. There was nothing intrusive about this, it’s just something creepy that I’ve done. I keep ruminating about it but still. I don’t identify myself by this mistake but it still sucks. My mind then went to children that I know, one girl and one boy, and them separately doing sexual things for the first time and navigating that and it feels like I like it but I don’t. It’s not as real as the movie scene because the fact I enjoyed the scene WAS real but it’s still stressing me out.
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