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I am triggered by trolling bigtime. Scrupulosity ocd - I have sent paragraphs of explanation to loose acquantainces and complete strangers when I have felt misunderstood or like I upset someone. Been off SM for almost a year. Going to be working on that with my therapist because I want to be able to speak my mind and write and be out there. Can’t do that if I’m terrified of vitriol.
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Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼 my very first episode had something to do with social media. Never in a million years did I think i would experience something like I did in my first episode. I had posted a picture and tagged someone who has a huge following and for some reason I noticed they saw my tag in their DM on IG and I began to over think why they didn’t repost it but reposted others tagged post. I rationalized every possible reason why they didn’t repost my post. I judged myself for even caring. I thought okay hmmmm maybe I’m just overthinking, I’ll get over it BUT after sometime I became aware that I was really overthinking and started to fear that the thought of them not reposting my post will never leave. I thought I was stuck. I even told myself that when I had tagged them it was not my intention to be seen or be reposted so i was confused as to why I was overthinking it. And i also began to doubt my intentions. I got irrational fears. It was super scary. It was when I did research and got a diagnosis that it was ocd that I found relief. But ocd made me believe I was crazy and that maybe I just need validation and that I’m too sensitive which I wont lie …. I am sensitive and have struggled with wanting to be seen and validation but that episode was on a whole other level! Starting to share more in detail my story little by little to expose my ocd as Im starting to feel way better about my first episode 🙏🏼 super long but wanted to share 🙏🏼 thank you for reading!
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god, i feel like i have a whole subtype around "social media ocd" it's really messing me up. i've barely been going on social media other than reddit (& even that's just for r/OCD) & a big chunk of my intrusive thoughts are social media/internet themed, maybe this is just a side effect of growing up in this era & being online since a very, very young age but it's so difficult for me to handle i might make a whole post about it
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I hear you! Thank you for sharing. Hoping to see your post to learn more about your experience and hoping you find the tools to feel and cope better 🙏🏼
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Hi Itsanina, thanks for sharing your story about your first episode related to social media. You are definitely not alone. I have had similar experiences with obsessions much like the first episode you described, except with posts on my friends’ you tube channels or during live streams. I ended up going down a rabbit hole overthinking and got stuck ruminating on it like you were. Also, much like @Blueskybird, I have always struggled with making sure my texts, emails, posts were not misunderstood by someone, or I misunderstood ones sent to me, to make sure nobody would be angry at me or hurt, even when deep down I knew I was being ridiculous. However, my OCD would cause me to doubt that fact and had me reread the messages until I could recite them verbatim, but yet I still needed to check them because the doubt would not go away. I did the same thing with you tube videos, needed to rewatch to make sure I understood everything correctIy, sometimes rewatching enough until I could memorize everything and repeat it back until it just “felt right”….I know ridiculous, but yet that’s what I did. I ended up avoiding SM as much as possible when first starting my OCD recovery journey. Best wishes in all of your OCD journeys and stay strong.
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Thank you SO much for sharing your experience! Truly! It helps so much to know I’m not alone in the experience I had. I seriously kept think out of all things whyyy this thought!!!!! It was the worst seriously. I thought I was going crazy. So happy to hear you are honoring your needs on ur recovery journey. I myself take time away from the socials. It’s so important! Rooting for you! 🙌🏼✨🙏🏼
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Holy yes. Especially for SOOCD social media really triggers me cuz I analyze all of their behaviors and compare them to mjne
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Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼 my very first episode was obsessing over something I noticed after I posted and tagged someone and truthfully did not think anything of it when I posted it but once I caught myself overthinking it and feeling like that thought would never leave is when I started to loose my mind. It was scary.
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I shared my experience in more detail in my comment down below if you would like to read 🙏🏼
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Than you both for sharing your experiences. I asked this question about OCD with social media because my first episode had something to do with social media. And I often feel like I’m the only one that struggled with this kind of theme. And I know OCD makes you feel like your obsession is unique therefore maybe it isn’t OCD. So it just always feels good that others could potentially relate 🙏🏼
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I think SM is designed to be addictive which overlaps with some of the wiring of OCD. Totally agree with you both!
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Very brief mentions of pocd and nsfw jokes,id like this to be adults only . Repost bc i had to edit something Does anyone have experience with real event ocd attached to your online footprint etc? I keep checking old messages,trying to find old people i knew i used to talk to etc. To find out every problematic thing I did and if I've ever been unfollowed or blocked by anyone I used to be friends w online/atleast on good terms w. I am particularly concerned abt doing something bigoted,esp racist bc i have racism ocd,and doing something predatory bc of my pocd. I remember hanging around people who could use 'edgy' or offensive humour in my teens and i remember a lot of sex jokes and that i would join in on sex jokes sometimes . i dont remember details w the offensive humour as much,i feel like i didnt join in on it as much but i was definitely WAY passive abt things and prob let a lot of bad stuff slide i shouldnt have bc i didn't speak up it was wrong,I remember one friend in an online community would say slurs and horrible jokes when i was 16. I dont remember my response to it as much but i feel i didnt speak up abt it aside one time i found in the dms where he made a bad joke on a thing i shared for social justice. I cant stop going thru old messages and stuff or trying to find ppl from the past. I feel like if I don't check it now,that eventually it'll come to haunt me or that I'll stumble across it eventually. I worry what if someone messaged me on one of these apps I un-installed or on one of the accounts I don't have access to,confronting me abt all this stuff I did. I had an obsession w this back in 2020 and did check in depth on all my accounts,but now that it's been 4 years the obsession is back in full swing.
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I’m new to the app and wanting to know who else experiences this form of ocd. Some background I was a therapist for over 10 years now I am out of the clinical space. So I have background knowledge of ocd but never knew much about relationship ocd. I realized over the last several years with my now fiancé, that I have a hard time just letting go in general, whether that’s an argument or statement or feeling. I want to be able to just accept things at face value and move on (and talk later if my partner is ready as needed). But when conflict arises I can’t disengage till there is a clear resolution. It’s causing serious strife as he can feel trapped and it escalates the argument. I am reading more and this sounds like relationship OCD. Anyone else experience this? Curious on what others have done to work on this for themselves. I do have a therapist but we are not doing work in this area yet as I am realizing this is an actual concern.
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Ok so I just downloaded this app like two days ago because I was looking for a OCD specialist. Maybe this is just my opinion but the posting’s on this app can be super triggering. If feels like even sharing your experience on an app like this can contribute to fueling OCD. So many people I see reassurance seeking, confessing and posting the same things multiple times to gain certainty. Makes me wonder if this app is counterproductive to the point of OCD treatment. I’m guilty of spending hours scrolling through the post trying to find people who relate to me, but in the end it makes me more anxious and fuels my OCD. Idk what do you guys think.
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