i struggle with ROCD and SOOCD, and they’ve ALWAYS worked together so closely, ya know just to really mess with my head and my emotions 🥴 they’re working together so intensely right now and it’s completely scaring me. i feel like there’s absolutely no way i can’t be gay and i feel like i absolutely have to break up with my bf. this is all completely tearing me apart and making me feel so unlike myself. i want to tell my bf, but i know that would be a compulsion. i’m just struggling so much right now and feel like i’ll never get out of this way of thinking/feeling. any kind words would be appreciated. p.s. i’m also going to have a zoom call today with a psychiatrist to see if medication would be a good option, but i feel like i’m lying to myself about this all being OCD and that all i’m trying to do is essentially “pray the gay away” and i can’t get that out of my head either. it’s been such a rough week and idk how to come back from it.