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queen of ruminating
11d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
  • Relationship OCD

i struggle with ROCD and SOOCD, and they’ve ALWAYS worked together so closely, ya know just to really mess with my head and my emotions 🥴 they’re working together so intensely right now and it’s completely scaring me. i feel like there’s absolutely no way i can’t be gay and i feel like i absolutely have to break up with my bf. this is all completely tearing me apart and making me feel so unlike myself. i want to tell my bf, but i know that would be a compulsion. i’m just struggling so much right now and feel like i’ll never get out of this way of thinking/feeling. any kind words would be appreciated. p.s. i’m also going to have a zoom call today with a psychiatrist to see if medication would be a good option, but i feel like i’m lying to myself about this all being OCD and that all i’m trying to do is essentially “pray the gay away” and i can’t get that out of my head either. it’s been such a rough week and idk how to come back from it.

milliemoo
10d ago
I can relate to this massively, I hope your day gets a little better and good luck with the zoom call!
queen of ruminating
10d ago
thank you!
Leavely (she/her)
10d ago
Did ur psychiatrist suggest any specific meds? Ive been suggested a bunch but I dont know what I should choose(im uk based)
queen of ruminating
8d ago
he suggested SSRIs, and then he asked me what my family’s history with medicine is. i asked my cousins, aunts, parents, siblings, etc. about what meds they’ve taken for their mental health, and then my psychiatrist helped me decide what would be best for me based on that information. we ended up picking this one called Lexapro, and i’m starting a small dose.
Leavely (she/her)
8d ago
@queen of ruminating Thanks for the info 🙏