If you keep trying to push away the thought that maybe you do want to be with women, then your OCD is just going to keep winning. Allow yourself to not know the certainty of your sexuality. It does not need an answer. Continue in your relationship with your boyfriend, and accept that maybe you will have attraction in others, but it does not need answered.
Okay, you’re right I know you are, it’s just so hard Thank you
@milliemoo Recovery is not easy! But it’s worth it.