Just saw a video about someone when they were in the closet and they mention how they used to search ‘am I gay quiz’ and that’s something I remember doing and now my anxiety is up high. I just want to be with my boyfriend but I’m scared I can’t be because I’m secretly in denial. It’s hard when there feels like there’s so many signs but it’s just not what I want at all. I don’t want to be with women but maybe deep down I secretly do and just can’t accept it. Arghhhhhh.

User type: NOCD Alumni

Username: Jesse Miller

Date posted: 491d ago

If you keep trying to push away the thought that maybe you do want to be with women, then your OCD is just going to keep winning. Allow yourself to not know the certainty of your sexuality. It does not need an answer. Continue in your relationship with your boyfriend, and accept that maybe you will have attraction in others, but it does not need answered.

Username: milliemoo

Date posted: 491d ago

Okay, you’re right I know you are, it’s just so hard Thank you

User type: NOCD Alumni

Username: Jesse Miller

Date posted: 491d ago

@milliemoo Recovery is not easy! But it’s worth it.