- Username
- marifer
- Date posted
- 5y ago
What you're experiencing is depersonalization and derealization which is not a symptom of psycosis... but can be very disturbing... I know! Delusions and hallucinations is the hallmark of psycosis aswell as word salad, unorganized thinking etc... like with schizophrenia. Although psycosis can be experienced on it's own without having schiz. I had episodes of it... and eventhough I knew what was happening I struggled to shake it. What do you mean specifically with telling someone something?
Yeah not so much of a feeling but it’s like I feel the world isn’t real that my whole life isn’t real and that someone on the outside is controlling things
And I get hallucinations and if talk to someone about this and they say something that I didn’t tell them or st least don’t remember telling them I freak out
Sometimes I feel weird and I focus too much on it because of my OCD and it gets worse. I’m OCDing on that feeling. If you feel you need to call your dr if it’s not ocd please do that.?
I don't really think psycosis is a feeling, can you describe what you are feeling?
It's actually quite normal for people with ocd and a super busy mind to say something and forget what they said or someone saying you said something and you can't remember... it happens, just keep an eye out for if it get's worse.
Yes for example I told my mom of what I hallucinated and how I felt. The next day (today) in the morning I was freaking out and she told me no it’s not real and then I told her what and she said the thing about robot. I had told her I hallucinated an office in my head I described it as robotic but I don’t recall telling her that. When I told her I don’t remember telling her she told me that she must’ve misunderstood ☹️ which only got me more paranoid.
hi! I really need someone to help out right now. I would appreciate it so much. Thanks:) I know this is kind of long, but please help me out and read it. please help confirm for me that the symptoms im experiencing are just extreme existential OCD, depersonalization, and anxiety. it would make me feel a lot better. 7-8 months ago a traumatic event led me to experience severe depersonalization. ive had OCD for as long as i can remember basically, but it’s become a lot worse from this. i am a very big overthinker, so i tend to over analyze a lot of the things going on around me, my perception of everything, my thoughts, etc. it’s gotten so bad because of the depersonalization that i at times really can’t function anymore. one day, all i’ll be able to think about is the irrational fear that i somehow am going to die and there’s something terribly wrong with my brain, like cancer or something. then the next, i’ll be freaking out, worrying that im gonna go crazy. like this is some kind of early onset schizophrenia. i start doing research and i start obsessing over each and every thought i have, everything i see, etc. then i’ll be paranoid about my family, worrying that none of them are real and they’re imposters or something. i know it’s irrational. i recognize that and don’t genuinely believe it. but the fact that this thought worries me concerns me even more because it leads me to believe im going crazy. i am having existential crises regularly. like, all the time. it’s actually ridiculous. i’ll be reading a book and i start contemplating the English language and how it came to be, and then language altogether, and then how humans were able to create and understand language, and then how they were able to sound it out, how sound exists altogether, and so on. lol. like what the hell? a few days ago i was looking out of my bedroom window, and all the sudden had the intrusive thought come into my head, “what if this is just a simulation and what you see outside of your window is merely a two dimensional image?” and then i almost had a full on panic attack. anyways, those are some examples. i’m so worried. i feel like i have no control over what freaks me out anymore. i feel like i have no control of my brain altogether. i don’t want to go crazy. i don’t want to feel like im stuck in a dream anymore. im so scared. somebody please help me. i live my life in fear, worrying about everything i perceive. im exhausted. i can’t tell anyone because i don’t want them to worry, or think that im going crazy. that’ll only reinforce my fears.
Anyone else struggle with this theme? I feel like I’m going crazy Anyone give me any advice?
I fear that my ocd will cause psychosis or that it already has..
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