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BradOCD
9d ago
  • Relationship OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD

It feels like I want it, it feels like it would make me feel good! It’s just all I think about every second of every day. Surely that’s not normal? I never used to constantly think about being heterosexual, it was just who I was period!

Lotte93
9d ago
Of course it does. OCD is very convincing. It's also very good at making you feel like you are the worst case scenario. That you're different to everyone else on this app. We've all been there. Don't take this the wrong way but...you're not any different that any one of us. We're all going through exactly the same thing. I have thoughts every day, multiple times a day that I dont love my partner, that I don't want to be here, that we are inevitably going to break up so why am I wasting my time. Sometimes I let them get the better of me and it makes me sick to my stomach. But most times, I say 'Maybe, maybe not' and I carry on with my day. Those thoughts are beginning to learn they are irrelevant. This is hard work but isn't hard work better than giving up?
HiOcd
9d ago
I find it so hard to say maybe, maybe not. The times ive tried it led me down to checking.
Lotte93
9d ago
@HiOcd It did take practice for me. But not everything works for everyone. My therapist gave me lots of tools, hopefully you find one that works for you!
Imaan7
9d ago
Same I had the same few months ago but somehow ive even convinced myself that thats normal
BradOCD
9d ago
Normal?
Imaan7
9d ago
@BradOCD My brain somehow rationalized that even that is normal, thinking about the same thing every minute of the day for a year plus straight and that what im going through is part of the process and I couldnt really disprove or deny anything bc of all the proof it had.
BradOCD
9d ago
@Imaan7 I feel this. But then what do we do now
Imaan7
9d ago
@BradOCD I have no idea man but you should really take my advice and see a therapist, you have textboot hocd, i can spot the symptoms. Check out IOCDF website, theres great ocd specialists in the UK, trust bro get yourself out of this mess, id hate to see someone end up like me or worse. Go on that website right now and do some research!
BradOCD
9d ago
@Imaan7 I do have a therapist but I feel like I’m just always digging up stuff from my past that just further the ocd cause