Absolutely no attraction to women at all, it feels like Im forcing it when I see them. Theres just no desire or feelings, it causes me to feel weak in my limbs and gives me this weird feeling in my chest. Ughhh, I know dreams dont mean much but I had this dream last night where I got attached to this girl but I was feeling more attracted to men and chose to leave her. It makes feel so shit.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

Hey brother - talk to a therapist. I know you’re scared, but it’s best to get professional help

Sukhmani

Date posted: 3y

Hey, your feelings are valid and it’s okay to feel the way you’re feeling. 💗

Imaan7

Date posted: 3y

I dont like feeling how I feel

Sukhmani

Date posted: 3y

@Imaan7 Same I totally get you 🤎

mangoflavore...

Date posted: 3y

I agree about talking to a therapist ! I have had my own experience with sexual orientation OCD; it really doesn’t matter to me what my sexuality is, what bothers me is the thought of not knowing something so important about myself and not being able to make a decision. I have found out my sexuality, though ! I am bisexual and I do find myself trying to figure out if I’m attracted to trans men and women, as I’m a trans man myself and feel like it’s somehow wrong to have my own preferences. I’ve decided that even though I really don’t experience any sexual attraction to trans men or women, if I some day discover that attraction is there, then I will embrace it ! I don’t plan for my preferences to change, but if they do, that just means there’s more sexy people out there to see 🤣 Try to slow down and allow yourself to truly figure things out. It really bothered me feeling like I couldn’t decide and couldn’t tell how I truly identified, but know that this is not permanent and you will discover this part of yourself, whether it’s you discovering that you were right all along, or that your sexuality is something different. Dreams mess with my brain too sometimes. Try not to pay attention to them, they’re most likely your subconscious projecting and twisting your worries and anxieties around. It’s ok and valid to take your time, even if deep down you feel there’s nothing you need to figure out and you know they’re just intrusive thoughts, try to be patient with yourself and your mind. You only have one. 🤍

Imaan7

Date posted: 3y

Did you figure it out during hocd? What age did you figure all that out?

mangoflavore...

Date posted: 3y

@Imaan7 I didn’t figure out through a specific subtype. I sort of just allowed myself to realize that yes I was obsessing over the situation but that the questioning I was going through was genuine. Once I removed that mindblock, which I’m not even really sure how I did that, I was able to see my truth. I think part of me knew all along but I was overanalyzing it too much and didn’t know which thoughts I could trust. Plus the reality of being bisexual was something that I wasn’t familiar with, and that change intimidated me at first. This whole thing lasted over two straights months, I woke up one day with the thought in my head and it didn’t go away. It was so frustrating that I was brought to tears a few times, but I was able to adjust to the thought of truly being bisexual and the idea of being with a man, and it became less scary over time. This was in the summer, I am 22. No matter your age, it is valid to question your sexuality and to have ocd about it.

ocdinglehopper

Date posted: 25w

intrusive feelings

hey, so i’ve had these insane thoughts about like, this dude. and i assumed it’s intrusive feelings, but it also has happened w the fact o think i like girls? but i don’t? like, i get the gronal response, and everything, and like, it sometimes feels like i actually like them, but it always makes me sick? same way w the false attraction guy, and it even started happening w my bsf of like 9 years? and it’ll tell me the most insane things like “maybe u are attracted” “maybe if u got w them the thoughts will stop” someone please help.

Anonymous123

Date posted: 24w

Thoughts make sense

I've always found women pretty and admired them since I was younger, never wanted to be with them or anything. I always pictured having a boyfriend and my crushes were always boys. I have a boyfriend now but because this has happened I feel nothing towards him or any men. To be honest I'm so exhausted I don't feel much at all, there was so much anxiety at the start and now there is none. Does that mean I have accepted the thoughts. My mind keeps going you were suppressed all these years but I do find women pretty so that's what's making it worse. Am I just in denial and being delusional? I never doubted my sexuality before this I always considered myself to be straight but I feels like my mind has been twisted and can't remember any attraction to guys but can remember thinking girls are pretty? Does this mean it's all real? I don't know anymore

Anonymous123

Date posted: 24w

I'm so convinced it's just denial

I feel sick to my stomach, a few days ago I knew I was straight and could picture my life with my bf again. The anxiety has really lessend and Im more depressed now. I'm 100% convinced I am lesbian even tho I have never had sexual attraction to women, found them pretty but never wanted to be with them. My mind is only picturing me being with women now and it feels like a pit in my stomach. I don't feel emotion now, I'm also on my period. I don't want to be lesbian. I want to be with my boyfriend and have the life I pictured with him. My memory is so dissorted right now. I don't think there's anything wrong with being lesbian, it's just not for me and now that makes me feel like I'm homophobic.

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