What should I do, if the idea of seeing him don't make me enthusiasts, but also I know that if I force myself to go out with him I would have fun? It's not that I don't want to go out with him but neither that I want to go out with him!

Ah yes. This sounds fun! (Sarcasm). I’m dealing with the same right now. I am getting upset and feel wrong and guilty because I’m not super excited to hang out with him all the time. I’m trying to just let it be.

This is classic avoidance! One of the best ways you can help yourself is to lean into going and being ok with all emotions that arise during it, even if they’re not fun ones.

Idk what to do! I’m currently contemplating whether to cancel on him or not

Omg yess, I’m feeling this exact same thing too!!!