Currently going through a deep sadness about my intrusive thoughts surrounding false memory and real event OCD. I feel a deep hurt and sadness. I'm holding on and trying to live my life... and some days are less difficult and I feel hope and other days I feel this enormous weight on my mind and shoulders. I haven't slept all night which also makes me more emotional I'm sure. But I can't help but feel this deep sadness today. I didn't feel it all day but I did feel it kind of linger in the background as I was going through my day and then I couldn't help but break down a little bit. I will keep working towards getting better. Sometimes it doesn't feel like I will ever feel better and I get really sad and scared and other times I have hope.

I feel the same. I'm also going to something really hard, and there's parts of the day when I feel really good, but then I just feel like I'm not gonna make it or get better. I send you the biggest hug and so so so much love.

Hey! i’ve made other posts about my experiences with false memory ocd and i’ve been through it once and currently going through it again.. it’s not great! hard to function, eat, sleep.. what you’re feeling if what i’m also going through.. worry and guilt and depression and fatigue making it really hard to function. It hurts really deep to think i’d be capeable of such a thing my false memory was worrying about and I felt betrayed and like a bad person.. the sadness just devours me and makes me want to stay comfortable and tired. it’s my worst fear. but you’re definitely not alone and surprisingly so many other people are dealing with false memory and other ocd that makes things even harder !