Currently going through a deep sadness about my intrusive thoughts surrounding false memory and real event OCD. I feel a deep hurt and sadness. I'm holding on and trying to live my life... and some days are less difficult and I feel hope and other days I feel this enormous weight on my mind and shoulders. I haven't slept all night which also makes me more emotional I'm sure. But I can't help but feel this deep sadness today. I didn't feel it all day but I did feel it kind of linger in the background as I was going through my day and then I couldn't help but break down a little bit. I will keep working towards getting better. Sometimes it doesn't feel like I will ever feel better and I get really sad and scared and other times I have hope.