I feel the same. I'm also going to something really hard, and there's parts of the day when I feel really good, but then I just feel like I'm not gonna make it or get better. I send you the biggest hug and so so so much love.
Hey! i’ve made other posts about my experiences with false memory ocd and i’ve been through it once and currently going through it again.. it’s not great! hard to function, eat, sleep.. what you’re feeling if what i’m also going through.. worry and guilt and depression and fatigue making it really hard to function. It hurts really deep to think i’d be capeable of such a thing my false memory was worrying about and I felt betrayed and like a bad person.. the sadness just devours me and makes me want to stay comfortable and tired. it’s my worst fear. but you’re definitely not alone and surprisingly so many other people are dealing with false memory and other ocd that makes things even harder !
the stormy clouds do pass by and new beginnings happen, things get better and new introductions begin