Does anyone else wish they could go into a coma? I don’t want to die I just don’t want to be awake or aware. I want that level of unconsciousness where you don’t even dream

like not bad dreams but not good dreams if that makes sense? i had one last night where i was imagining my entire family being at our house or something but i mean it was like this whole thing like a holiday maybe? i can’t remember exactly. anyways—then, before i woke up i started seeing and hearing things/people in my dream and then i died somehow..? and then all what i was seeing and hearing changed to ghosts.. not sure if this means anything or not but thank you for listening i really do appreciate it! 🩷🩷 has anyone else had dreams like this? or just randomly start to have constant dreams and then they go away for a little while then come back again?

I’ve been perturbed for a couple of months now with incessant thoughts about aging and dying. I really am not sure what to do. This feels like other OCD themes, but also really different, because this time, what I’m afraid of is sure to happen. I will either die, or age and then die. It’s been so difficult to enjoy anything lately. I just want to pull a blanket over my head and wait until death comes. Has anyone else felt this way? I feel quite alone. I am trying to enjoy life, but I just remember that it will all be gone in a flash. Nothing really seems to help me feel better. The only escape I have is in my dreams where I can fantasize about never aging or dying. Or at least being able to rewind the clock to have more time.

Does anyone feel like they are stuck in place? I haven’t done anything besides lay in bed on my phone (if I’m not at work) for almost a year now. I have the desire to go out and be a part of the world, but I feel like my body is glued to my bed. I can’t motivate myself to get out of pajamas to go anywhere, and the entire time I’m out (even just at the store) I just want to be home in bed. I mainly just DoorDash food now, when I can convince myself to eat. I’m tired.