Imaan7
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Endriu Endriu
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Hey man I totally understand you, I have this fear since 15 years, despite a good break in the middle. Look, you, I can be gay but it doesn't mean we have to have recursive thoughts. We need to cure our depression first. Then if we like we can explore out sexuality š These are two separate things. If I can help you, we need to find a way to stay a bit better. You can find this starting watching Nathan Peterson videos on YouTube on hocd, then you can follow his online course or start a path with a cbt therapist. I bet $1000 if you do this, in a very short time you'll be with your family again, laughing and being happy. But don't snooze that. DO IT NOW !!!
Imaan7Imaan7
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But everyone that has hocd for that long still say they hate their thoughts and dont want them. Its not the case with me, I dont think I hate them, i think they just made me realize my true self that I never noticed all these years which is causing the Ćuicidal thoughts and depression.
jfount11117jfount11117
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@Imaan7 No no no dude that is not how OCD works. OCD will give you thoughts images urges and feelings that are ALL false. It will even make you think you want or like your thoughts. I have harm OCD and it makes me feel just like you said along with everyone sense on this app. This is what OCD does. If you will stop trying to figure this out you will see more clearly. The more you think about it the more you are feeding it and the stronger it gets.
jfount11117jfount11117
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Imaan if you have depression YOU ARE NOT THINKING CLEARLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Man I feel your pain but stop trying to āfigureā this out. Iām on the outside f all this and this is what I see: #1- You have been struggling with this a while. #2- If you were gay you would be at peace about it. #3- If you were going along and never thought about it and liked females but ALL OF A SUDDEN you had this thought, then this is ALL OCD!!!!!! #4- It seems to me you have overthought (Ruminated) to the point of confusion. I know Iāve done it! Bro, Iām not trying to be ugly but you have to STOP the rumination and compulsions and have a clear mind. Itās gonna take a bit for that to happen. So stop the over analyzing and work on the depression. Make yourself get out of bed and do things.
Endriu Endriu
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Yeah, I agree on point 4 and beyond. Solve your depression with a therapist ASAP
Imaan7Imaan7
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I think its just figuring out itself, either way its too late. Many gay people when they first realize it are not comfortable, I think if I tried to accept it I too would be at peace. Even thinking I could like only females dosent make me happy or relieve me at all. I think I just feel embarrassed about being gay and thats why all this is happening and once I embrace and accept it, it will solve on its own. I can even see that happening in my head and then theres way too much proof about this from my past and present day
Imaan7Imaan7
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And I think I never truly liked females as a proper straight man, dont think that attraction was real
OneDayAtATimeOneDayAtATime
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are u seeking help? If not I think you should because I started to fall into a rut like that and it got reallt bad
Imaan7Imaan7
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I dont see a point bc i think my thoughts are true.
OneDayAtATimeOneDayAtATime
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@Imaan7 Well it seems like you are really deep in depression and if you want to get better you should see a therapist. You should also watch some helpful HOCD videos that will help u out
Endriu Endriu
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@Imaan7 Dude, what you're thinking and written it's a clear syntom of depression from ocd. Seek for help, find your serenity and then figure out your sexual orientation. Now you're not in the right mental state to do so. COME ON!
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