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I understand how you feel. I had been in a better place but now it seems as though I’m back to where I started. It’s so lonely because the people around me will never understand how I feel but I wish someone did. I wish someone I knew personally could understand. I would never wish this on my loved ones. I look at them with envy knowing they aren’t suffering like me. I also am glad they aren’t suffering like me. I want the suffering to go away. I guess all we have to do is stay strong right?

I feel the same. Recently the news about the school shooting have been triggering my harm ocd. The story about the kid having these harm thoughts and acting on them is really scaring me because now my ocd makes me feel like I’m like this person and would become my worst fears and harm someone and it just feels too real.