Currently struggling pretty hard :/ I have so many different intrusive thoughts I couldn’t possibly ask for enough advice on this forum, i just hope I can start treatment soon. My fears and anxieties have left me house ridden. I’m unable to socialize and only leave to get my partner to and from work. I can barely go to the grocery store and have developed an eating disorder from my ingredient obsessions. I’ve been unemployed over a year and the idea of feeling THIS paralyzed leaving the house while also being expected to go to work and perform makes me feel ill. I’ve had dermatillomania my entire life and my “nails” are nothing but fingers with teeny unbelievably thin slivers of nail matter left and I have a bad habit of getting lost in my nail biting or taking sharp objects to my face for hours on end. I have to ask my boyfriend are you still alive every few hours. I feel like any angle from which OCD could attack you, I’m being crippled from. I’m uninsured and I have been relying in emergencies on a bottle of beta blockers from three years ago, I have four left and I’m very scared. I’m feeling very low guys. Wishing for relief.

Hi!!! So I have Harm OCD. I had it really bad about 10 years ago. I didn't want to go to work but forced myself. I think honestly that was really good for me because I made myself go instead of building walls. I will tell you over time though I stopped going to church bc it was part of my avoidance. I slowly went back and exposed myself to it. I would definitely recommend NOCD therapy. Also, a lot of the medication that helps with OCD has been generic for AGES and the prices are low compared to a lot of brand name medication. With not having insurance if therapy isn't an option due to $$$ there are amazing books I could recommend. Overcoming intrusive thoughts is great, there's one with Harm OCD. I haven't researched magical thinking. Definitely make a list of the things you're afraid of starting with the smallest/least afraid then work up. Conquer each fear at a time starting with the smallest. Never give up hope. The bible also talks a lot about fear and anxiety and helped me a TON. I wouldn't be where I am today without Jesus and the word of God. Truly. If you want scripture I can send some your way too. God bless - hold on to hope it does get better. Just takes time.